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Thursday, October 30, 2003
I want.
I want to push you downso you'd lie flat on your tummy and I'll get on top of you and slowly embrace you and not let you touch me because I'm in control now. I want to lower myself down onto you bit by bit and push your hair away and let you know how amazing you are and how much I love your hair and skin and I want to scratch a very neat and straight line down your beautiful skin with my sharp fingernails and I want to bite you where you're at the most sensitive because I know you like it... I want to kiss you all over and run my tongue down your back. I want to grab your arms and pin you down and whisper breathily down your ears that you're so beautiful that I want you so bad but I can't... I want to see you squirm and then sigh in pleasurable defeat, then I'll smile and kiss you softly. When you begin to relax, I'll start to bite the back of your neck and slowly run my sharp nails down your flawless arm and then you'll be oh-so-surprised and ask me 'What are you doing?' and I'll say in a breathy voice 'Relax sugar... relax...' then I'll kiss your ears so slowly you can't help but to close your eyes and sigh then I'll stick my tongue in your ears and savour every part of you with my tongue after that and scratch you and bite you and grab you real hard and leave bruises everywhere. Bruises. From me. Because you're mine. Only mine. Forever mine. But you know that will never happen again... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- GLORIA I LOVE YOU!!!! YOU ARE MY MOST FAVOURITE-EST PERSON RIGHT NOW!!!! hahahaha! She's like totally is a great friend man. The Queenie wanted to be the first person to wish me a happy birthday and wanted to be the first to give me my present, so she's been calling the entire week coz she wants to meet up. Like, it's so sweet!!!! I'm so happy for Kiren and Mo coz I match-made them and now they're happily in love. Mo's flying in to SG in Dec from UK and he's gonna give me a huuuuuuuge treat. wheeeeeeeee Met up with Ivan and Andrew at WM just now to slack. Silly boys were tempting me with my favourite Coffee Bean drink Sunrise and my favourite vice - smoking. I was like trembling, trying to suppress my desire to just give in to temptation. Idiots... but it was fun though sitting there for hours bitching and catching up on old times. Ivan looked so rad man, with his black tee and trucker cap. As Trent would say, 'So scene'. Seriously dudey, loved your outfit. Could almost eat you. But I didn't. hahaha Went to WM alone at night to have a puff and as usual, I had to trip in front of BK where there were like, only thirty boys slacking??? I could've died of embarrassment... but I guess the boys were used to seeing me trip. -silly grin- ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I hate you. I can't believe you forgot it's my birthday. I can't believe you thought it's NEXT MONTH when it's this Tuesday... And you said you love me the most. I hate you. I've even planned your birthday prezzie even though it's still more than a month to go... but you forgot MINE. So much for me being the person you adore huh... (sorry if I'm bitchy-o coz I'm PMS-ing) Wednesday, October 29, 2003 Went over to her house to bum around. Didn't do much studying coz we were busy yakking away about love, life, death, tattoos, art, piercings, boys, gurls, rain, death, photography, death, piercings, have I said tattoos? haha It's like, I feel like I've known her forever. But we're only schoolmates. And we only got close recently. Like, weeks? Yea... Met Dessy for dinner at Moss Burger and yuuuum. The cutie pie bought each of us this LARGE Coke that we couldn't even half-finish it in 2 hours. hahaha I'd say this is one of the best times spent with him. Like, totally bonded and laughed and joked around like total fools. Made fun of each other like as if we never knew the word 'tact' and 'crude' ever existed. Like, Dessy's the man. He is.
It was a tie apparently. I'm both of these care bears. woo hoo.
 See what Care Bear you are.
 See what Care Bear you are.
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Why do you keep asking me the obvious.
I. Need. You. Stay, do stay. I promise I will make you proud. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Mesmerize me. Enthrall me. Charm me. Hold my interest in you for as long as you can because I'm heading towards the door. Lure me with your breathless charm once again because my fascination with you is waning. Entice me with your enchanting charisma because boredom has set in. Time to get to work honey... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You know that this is wrong. Secret calls that lasts for hours, sizzling flirtations set on the brink of danger, and of course the sexual innuendos that you and I indulge in amidst confident giggles and whispers. I want to see you. I need to see you. I just want you. Monday, October 27, 2003
Waited outside the goddamn library for like 40 minutes only to discover that we weren't allowed to study in the library. Fcuk man... and we were fasting and we had to walk so goddamn far somemore... Sheha got pissified like fcuk so we went over to YMCA Mac's to study and surprise surprise, that vonderful place didn't even bug us for not buying anything even tho we were sititng there the entire day studying. When we left, the staff even said Bye to us cheerfully. What a nice place... God bless all them YMCA Mac's souls...
Met up with Trent and went grocery shopping. Was hilarious coz we didn't know which was the yellow ginger, old ginger, young ginger and which was the 'Blub' one. hahaha! So so funny... --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You sang to me and I could hardly breathe. You said you're going to write a song for me; about me. I could've sworn I'd collapse on my bed should you whisper another tune into my anticipating ears. You knew that I'm falling. And. You're. Doing. This. To. Me. On. Purpose. I hate you. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Can't believe I always get the same answers as Trent tho... You are SCREAMO! Fall is your favorite season. Also you are too emotional for your own good. Honestly you could probably use a little psycho therapy. Or a break from those creative writing and literature overload courses at college. It's not uncommon of your type to stalk people, or to obsess about a past love for the rest of your living punk rock days  What fashionable underground band/style are you? this quiz was made by the sunni bunni bear Sunday, October 26, 2003
Bad day. Bad bad day.
I puffed and puffed away and within a span of 15 minutes 5 of Daddy's Peter Stuyvesants disappeared into my already-damaged lungs because time was running out and I had to think think think and I downed 3 Strawberry Snowshakes til my tummy bloated and suddenly I felt dizzy whilst wandering around WM and I puked my guts out at the stinky Handicapped toilet and I drank and puffed into oblivion because I was so fucking upset and I felt so bad and everything's tumultuous and oh Gosh honey, I'm so so sorry for everything. I was only chirpy and up-beat when you called me because I didn't want to be weak and I didn't want to break down no matter how much I wanted to but I was very upset and I was so freaked out by everything but I didn't want to tell you anything anymore because I knew I'd make things worse if I opened my mouth and I really didn't want to aggravate the situation and oh man did I tell you how sorry I am, I really really am? Oh God I'm so so so sorry. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Go go go! I know a new doctor. His name is Doctor Eugene Li. His clinic's name is NOOB's Clinic for the Sane but Sick. Okay I'm soooo crapping here. hahaha! Nice dear ol Gene... save me some ginseng ok! Or whatever it was you boiled and burnt. Heh heh heh Saturday October 5 2003 Shopping with Mom. Kinda pissified though coz Daddy asked her to being me shopping, to get me 2 tops, my hair curlers and my new slippers from eXodus. In the end we only got me 1 top coz she was busy searching and getting her stuff. Grrr... really pissified now. But I love my MANGO top so that'll do for now. haha Had dinner at this Hong Kong restaurant along Bukit Timah and tim sums are goooooooooooooood! Yummy.. the parking was a problem though. We rounded the area for like 30 minutes just to get one tiny pathetic space that's fit for a dustbin. But no matter coz dinner was gooooooooooooooood. Yummy yum yum... Friday, October 24, 2003
Hmm.. maybe a great day would be an understatement.
Awesome beyond words would be more like it ;) Throat hurts from the 8 sticks of my beloved Virginia Slims tho... consumed it all within 4 wowowee hours. Ouch ouch ouch... Sheha came over and we watched Lord Of The Rings Part 1 and jeez God, my ass hurts after 3 hours on the sofa -sheepish smile- It was a nice movie though a tad depressing... I don't know why. Must be all those creepy thingys in black cloaks and black horses... Met Dessy and surprise surprise we saw Shawn Lunchbox Band at the Kopitiam near Boon's. So we chit chatted and I found out some stuff... that made me empathise with Shawn rather than to loathe him... Jamming was great as usual... the boys seem to have improved alot from the last jamming session I spent with them. Gene's yodelling, or should I say screeching; was rather alarming yet hilarious -major huge grin- Seems the lad has been practising his screams alot lately... heh. Dessy talent with his SG amazes me to this day. I mean, it's like, he's gooood man! And Steve's the bestest drummer I've ever heard live. Though he coould cut the tongue-hanging-out-like-a-thirsty-dog act, his skills are no doubt top-notch. Took tonnes of photos of the boys in action under the Photos 2 link. And no Flo, my face is not anywhere in there so don't worry about getting an overdose of me. -sticks tongue out at ya- Dessy drove down to Holland V, all the way from Potong Pasir, and we had dinner. Steve got mesmerized by Holland V the TV show halfway through dinner. It's funny that we're watching Holland V in Holland V. hahaha! Got a load of advice from Gene the Wiseman about getting a tattoo done so now I'm not getting it. Going to get an air-brushed one instead. wheee! Went to Breko or something to chill and the boys had their beers while Gene and I enjoyed our Deep Puple drink. Remember Gene, det-det-det-detdet-detdet or something. haha! Saw the cutest furry dog with short legs ever, which smiled at me when I was staring and grinning away at him like a fool. Yes Dessy, I sooo have to write that down coz it's a thing to remember for life. I mean, the beautiful dog smiled at me for God's sakes!! hahaha I love the atmosphere. I love the night sky. I love the ambience. Sititng there stoning with the usual pub music in the background, with the boys chattering away about music, with the cute doggy smiling at me, I felt like I could spend eternity that way. It was lovely. Car ride home was jerky, not going to delve further into it. Heh. Let's just say Dessy got pissified with some stupid driver and for a moment we thought we were going to die. hahaha Thursday, October 23, 2003 Hiding. You deal with your depression by wearing a mask. No one ever knows your depressed, so no one can ever pity you. On the outside you're calm and collected. Inside, your blood boils... But that's ok, as long as everyone thinks you're normal. How do you deal with your depression? brought to you by Quizilla One touch from you and I could hardly peel my eyes from you. That smile. That look. That voice... I think I'm infatuated. Your skin so soft with that feathery feel... I can't get you out of my mind. Just once. Once. And I'm hooked. Oh what am I going to do... Yesterday night was spent grinning til 3.30 am thinking about you. Now it's 12 in the afternoon and I'm still grinning; thinking about you. Couldn't stop talking about you... couldn't stop thinking about you... couldn't stop yearning for you. I want to see you again. Boy oh boy do I really want you... -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The thrill oh thrill of nude photographs. The thrill oh thrill of slashed wrists. The thrill oh thrill of sexual escapades that are not meant to be. The thrill oh thrill of skipping school to discover new people to get high with. The thrill oh thrill of leading men & women on til they can't spend a day not thinking of me. The thrill oh thrill of taking leisure puffs in the middle of the night; staring at the beautiful night sky. The thrill oh thrill of it all. What am I doing... Exams are in 2 weeks and I'm still clueless. The thrill oh thrill of it all. Mom and Dad are yelling. Because I am going astray. The thrill oh thrill of it all. When all's fine and dandy, nice and peachy, sweet and pretty; I crave for some excitement. Now I'm getting an overload of thrills, I can hardly breathe to live. The thrill oh thrill of it all. I must stop smoking. I must stop cutting. I must stop offending God. I must stop it all. Before it's too late. I live for this enigmatic thing called life. I do. The thrill oh thrill of it all. Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Ohmygosh what a fantatsic day!!!
But it was awful when I realized I dropped the entire tupperware of potato puffs into my bag. Everything was so oily and stuck with smashed potatos... I wanted to cry. And yesterday all the oil from the carrot cake spilled onto my notes and PSBB pencilcase. And today it happened again... so sad... Anyways: Trent's high school bitchy buddies were loads of fun and laughter... like jeez God people, they were H-O-T. I mean, I'm 19 and they're like, 16? I felt so ugly and under-developed next to them man.. sigh... We saw Scorpion and she's H-O-T too. I looove her star-shaped tattoos... thinking of getting those done... hmm... gonna have to talk to Gene about this... Saw Nina too. Well let's just say I was very surprised to see what Nina's really like. Yeah. Grins. Town was like Trentville or something. Her friends were EVERYWHERE. Suddenly I felt so un-popular. For once. Coz I saw none of mine :( Esplanade at night was breath-takingly beautiful. 'Nuff said man. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Updated new pics under 'Luxie' folder... check it out... and Flo honey bunny sweetie pie cutie petutie, I did NOT shake the lovely camera when I took those photos. They were perfectly aimed at but it looks the way it looks because I used ArcSoft Photostudio to enhance and edit the images. That's why it's like blurry. And if you think I'm a bad photographer, well I guess I'm a better model then. bwarhahahaha (trying to piss you off here, so don't take that seriously. heh.) Mean time I am stressed like hell so perhaps you guys could forgive me should I be rude or snappy to you. Pretty please okay... Can't wait for the jamming session and dinner on Friday coz it's MY day (according to Steve anyways. haha) and I shall cry if I want to, coz it's my party and I'll cry if I want to; cryyyy if I want to; cryyyy if I want to... you would be crying if it happened to youuuuu (sings some cacat oldie that goes like that. hahaha). Sunday, October 19, 2003
I remember writing this a loooong time ago... sigh... I wonder where my creativity and flow with words went to... ------>
your purity juxtaposed to my blackening psycho heart is like jeckyll and hyde on their good days and i want to be the rose for you even if it means that i ll wither and die eventually and you'll throw me away. and when all's bright and sunny and i'm no longer a junkie, pills are my enemies, cigs are looked upon as tools of destruction and promiscuity is questioned, i hope you see the damage you've done to me because i just lost the essence of my screwed-uppism. morbid manifestation beckons. leave me alone i say. Saturday, October 18, 2003 Mad Rad Hair!! You, you're so perfect and fabulously conceited that you have can't not show it off. Big hair, glossy lips, song lyrics all over the place. You can't get enough of yourself. But in a good way, of course. what scenester site do you belong on? brought to you by Quizilla
Today's Mom's birthday. Gonna have dinner at some restaurant later whereby my Dad booked a reservation 1 week in advance and I'm not allowed to wear jeans & slippers just because the dress code says so. Damn. What am I going to wear?? Sigh...
All my new photography are under the Photo link, under the Luxie and Wheeee folder. Yes yes yes I am self-indulgent now but I told you guys I'm going to be a camera whore as long as I have Dessy's digicam with me. -grinning away like a mad doofus- Besides I love taking these stuff... and editing them. Though I do not look anything like that in real life, it's fun to play around with yourself sometimes. Okay erm that did not come out right... what I meant was like play around with your own image. Yea. That's right. -laughs hysterically- Friday, October 17, 2003 Sheha came over and maaan, it was a major pigging out session I tell ya! haha! We ate ALOT and of course, attempted to study albeit the goddamn drillings, the yapping birdies, the classical music, the chattering children, the screaming ah sohs... so yeah, you can imagine how much studying we did. None practically. Then met Trent at Clementi to slack for a while. So fun... hehehe. Bitched as usual. Wanna say Hi to Gloria... how you been babe? See you soon coz I miss ya :) Thursday, October 16, 2003 Went to Dessy's to use the PC coz Dad plugged out my cable... Medium is so cute now!! The lil hamster grew so big & cute... just like the owner. heh. Headed over to Trent's after that and yea... was a nice day. She's a great host and we watched TV and we joked around and just bonded... so it was great really. Til her bro came home that is. hahaha! We totally freaked out then she shoo-ed him away then peace reigned again -grins- Wednesday, October 15, 2003 Was a great day. Met Trent and Naz to slack at Esplanade, then Naz brought us to this Suntec rooftop to watch the sunset. It was breathtaking man... sigh... so beautiful and romantic. Went to school and well, Yasmine just freaks me out man. Yeah... I vow to stay away from her. hahaha Tuesday, October 14, 2003
Since Dessy honey lent me his digicam for a few days, I've been a camera whore since like, yesterday night. Took like ten million photos, but only some shall be shown to you guys... heh heh. Go see Roomy folder to see what I've taken. My black wall and black bed sheets are swell huh?
-grins- Took some half-nudie/ nudie photos too, but I swear it's only for my eyes. No, Dessy's not gonna get it ever. hahaha! The thrill man... the thrill oh thrill of having your own nudie pics... -grins seductively- Played around with ArcSoft Photostudio and geez man... this stuff is good!! Check out the pics. heh. Monday, October 13, 2003
Woke up at 6.30 am to bake the brownies. Man... mom didn't realize I was sieving the flour, so she happily opened the windows. whoooosh! Flour flew all over the place; with my hair having this especially magnetic force that attracts the most amount of un-sieved flour. Since I'm such a clumsy oaf, I splattered chocolate sauce all over the kitchen tabletop as well. Sigh... it's only 9 am now and I'm already having a headache...
STILL waiting for the brownies to cool... Hope it'll be yummy!! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sheha said my brownies 9/10 then Trent said 7/10.Damn you -grins- Dessy looks nice today, check out photo under Dating folder. Trent said my outfit today looks so 'scene' (i.e. cool). Des said I look like 'So Nirvana'. hahaha! I hate my jeans though... so loose. but cool anyways. wheeeeeeeee Sunday, October 12, 2003
4 days and counting.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Urgh. I'm so goddamn sick. As usual, was allergic to the pussies at Aunt's place... so here I am sneezing my nose off every 5 minutes. AH CHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Urgh. The day started off bad... like I was seriously mad and pissed at Mom and Aunty but it was okay after that. I mean, afterall it was Aunt's birthday... so I felt bad that I made her miserable on her birthday morning. The party was really nice, in a sense that I was talking to everyone and having fun... pity 2 of my favourite boys weren't having much fun though... coz they had a 'talk' with Aunt that didn't turn out good at all. Can't wait for tomorrow. Gonna bake brownies for some special people. Wheeeeeeee! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Take care Eugene, don't stress yourself out so much aight? -gives you reassuring pat- Saturday, October 11, 2003
3 days and counting.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Am and Su asked me out for Wednesday. Can't wait!! haha! I mean, I am gonna meet like 3 people I've never met before, and 1 of whom I never knew existed man. So Su and I decided we'll stick to each other like glue and let the boys bond. heh. But Su's gorgeous... she's like a living doll man!! Serious! Like, a living Chinadoll with bangs and pretty pretty big eyes and beautiful skin. And here I am.. this sloppy lil scrawny thingy... sigh... --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Okay let me get this straight peeps, so you guys don't keep asking me the same things again and again. hahaha : 1) Des is my boyfriend. 2) Ivan is my best male friend. 3) Kejin is my best primary school friend. 4) Gloria is my best secondary school friend. 5) Aidah is my best JC friend. 6) Sheha is my best private school friend. 7) Flo is my best outside friend. 8) Trent is my best 'ex' friend. Kapish? Yes yes? So don't ask me where you stand anymore coz there you go, it's all up there :) I love you guys!!!!!!!! -kisskisskisskisskiss- ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Ivan called yesterday night... hehe.. I miss you sweets!! Anyhoos, take care. Don't give up on your studies laar... and Andrew, good luck. I hope everything will be sorted out soon. KEJIN!!! Thanks for calling yesterday.. hehe!! My friend and I found 20 bucks after that!! hahaha! But thanks for offering help anyways :) Don't stress out ok! Queenie Gloria, thanks for all the advice. Like, yea... I'm halfway to being sane right now coz you rooted me down. Hope to see ya soon babe ;) Friday, October 10, 2003
2 days and counting.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Found like 20 buckeroos with Sheha and we split it in 2. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Started out as a bad day tho... shall not divulge. Shall bask in happiness now. cheers. Thursday, October 09, 2003
Uploaded photos under 'Lido' folder...
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Amanda Perez - Angel 'God send me an angel From the heavens above Send me an angel to heal my broken heart From being in love 'Cause all I do is cry God send me an angel To wipe the tears from my eyes' Your mere words brought tears to my eyes. Instantaneously. I am in despair... Tearing apart... I feel so sad. I try to please but I fail miserably everytime... I can't believe how happy I was yesterday... and how miserable I am now. * 'Do you feel suffocated?' 'Yah... sort of...' he said. It broke my heart because everyday I feel like I'm losing my grip on you. I know you aren't reading this because you never read my blog entries before. So to hell with everything I shall just write what I feel. * 'My basic needs are not met with right now, and I'm talking about love here.' I think I just swallowed my heart when you said that... * 'sometimes the things i say really make u love me lesser huh' It's not that it makes me love you lesser.. it just breaks my heart. It makes me love you more because I realize how fast I'm losing you... * 'i dun wanna be gripped on all that time or rather i dun wanna be gripped on at all!' I'm not gripping honey... I'm not. I might just be too dependent on you that's all... * 'i dun have time for my friends at all it's not that i dun wanna spend time with u... let's say one of these days i lose u, must i go make friends all over again?' Oh dear... I see you only twice or thrice a week... what am I supposed to do... see you once a fortnight? * Okay maybe I'm being too clingy and unreasonable. Do you think a gurl who sees her boyfriend twice or thrice a week as clingy? Do you think a gurl who wishes she has more time with her boyfriend as unreasonable? Maybe it is. Maybe... It hurts so much I'm getting goosebumps... I cried over and over again. The tears stinging my eyes wouldn't stop flowing. I'm having this crying outburst every 20 minutes and I'm just so exhausted now... whenever I listen to a song, when I see your teddy bear, when I see your Cds... whatever that reminds me of you will bring the hot tears to my eyes. Do you see my pain love? Tell me if it's right for a gurl to be like this.. tell me if it's fair... Don't apologize. You meant what you said. No point in apologizing because it was meant to be said... it's alright dear. It's alright... I'm sorry to upset you... I really didn't mean it. I understand everything. I do... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Monday Oct 08 2003 Great day. Went RELC with Sheha and Des. Was drenched to the bones. Freezing cold. Studied at Lido and Des watched a movie. Alone. hahaha Saw many mnay people.. hmm.. Intan & friend, Gina & friend, Colin & friend, Steph Song & friend. (???) haha School was great fun. Des was perfect. What a lovely time we shared today... This must be the epitome of happiness. Tuesday, October 07, 2003
I'm a happy happy lil pussy. Yessiree!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 You are a playful kitten! You love adventure and playing with friends and siblings! What Type of Kitten are You? brought to you by Quizilla Okay like my absolute favourite trainspotting character!!! You're so rad spuddy budyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hahahaa  Spud (on no sex) "i've got balls like watermelons i tell you" Which Trainspotting character are you? brought to you by Quizilla
Suddenly I find posting messages on people's LJ very fun. Watch out kiddos mamachakkudud. I'm gonna haunt yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What's with MTV??? Why are they ruining my perception of my favourite bands??? First it was Weezer. Then NFG. Then Ataris. Then Dashboard Confessional. Then The Get Up Kids. Then Authority Zero. Then Sigur Ros. NOW LESS THAN JAKE. I mean, I have nothing against mainstream music (as IF) but I have a huge thing against bands trying to make tonnes of money by going public! I've totally lost respect for NFG, but I still adore the rest. hahaha Okay so bloody bugger off already if you think I'm a snob, aight? I stand by my own views so if you don't share it, keep it to yourself coz I don't want to have to argue with you the way I argue in my GP essays. Which I got an A for by the way. hahahahahhahahahhahaha ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Weezer lyrics are just so goddamn sweet. They are the most adorable geeky band ever. Jeez man I can eat them all! Was listening to 'Susanne' ten times over and the other songs too... it's like, they really love their chicks, ya know? But they always get broken-hearted... man, if I get a Weezer fella (especially Rivers Cuomo) I'll write songs for him instead of him for me. And I'll never ever ever scratch his heart, let alone break it. Serious. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Watched Mallrats yesterday night. Aww shucks I love these early-nineties and mid-nineties teen flicks. They are soooo goddamn great ya know? WAY better than those showing now anyways... like, Empire Records and FEAR and The Breakfast Club and... they were all so smart and funny. Like, there's a certain coolness about the older teen flicks. The new-age teen flicks are just trash man, serious. Just look at Can't Hardly Wait. Need I say more? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Trent don't forget today. At 6pm. at you-know-where. Call or msg Sheha should there be any changes. Monday, October 06, 2003
I really like what you do to me
I can't explain it But I'm so into you. Current favourite song heard on the radio everytime I go to Mac's. No idea who sang it even though I hear it 4 times a day. Okay shoot me just because Mac stuffs my ears with shite music 99% of the time. Argh. Moody now. Moody. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Extremely moody. I'm so confused. Everything's so fucked. Not going as I planned. Not getting what I want. Not happening. No. All no. Not happy. Very angry. Bad. Very frustrated. Why me? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Had a bad day. Spent the entire day freezing my pretty lil ass off at Mac's. Not only that; I had to bust up half my money on a pack of cigarettes that I hate. Just because they didn't have my Virginia Slims. Jeez... so I spent half the day studying in hunger AND cold. How productive... -snickers- ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Hidir found a new gurl whom he can make out with. How wonderful. Well he's obviously moved on and he doesn't need me anymore. So okay Aurora Sunrise (which is me) will *poof* and disappear. By the way, I was always there... you just pushed me aside. So don't turn the tables and tell everyone I played you out. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Saw bloody mutha fucker Fir at City Hall just now. Bloody piece of crap... wanted to spit in his face but decided to be the polite young lady that I am in reality, so I walked off with Trent and Sheha by my side, like my bodyguards. hah. Oh I said reality because on this page, I am a mindlessly rude lil bitch. But reality's different. I'm a mindlessly nice lil lady. Trust me. Trent thought I looked like a gangsta with my studded belt, buttoned bag and army-green long-sleeved top. I thought I looked decent for once. Oh well. One Man's meat is another Man's poison. As Trent said, there's no reality on the cyber arena. Go figure. Not going to ramble on my GP arguments for you people... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Fad messaged and called. What a nice and funny fella he is... okay I hope that the next time he visits the loo, cats wouldn't be staring at him while he's doing his business. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I love my new haircut. Jack is a vonderful magician. But parents hate it. They prefer the last time he cut my hair, the fringe episode. I think my parents purposely want me to look ugly. Yea... there's a conspiracy against me going on I tell ya... I can sniff it out 10 miles away. Yessiree... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ What's the huge dealio with Friendster anyways? I think it's a goddamn fucked propaganda to lure influential kiddos like us to waste our time and ruin our eyesight so that the Friendster bosses have something to stroke their asses. The power of the mass media is powerful I'm warning you... don't undermine it, people. Okay whatever that means. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Heyhey Eugene NOOBie. Just felt like saying that so don't freak okay. hah. Sunday, October 05, 2003
Went to JB with parents to have dinner and to shop.
Upon entering SG from JB, you have to take your temperature because of SARs. So we were given disposable strips of thermometers that are covered with paper. I stepped out of the car with dignity and I stuck the entire thing in my mouth. The customs officer said 'Miss, let me help you.' I went 'Mmmrrmmbbnllmmb', mumbling something along the lines of 'What?'. he took the thing out of my mouth and tore off the cover, and stuck the thermometer in my mouth. I didn't know I had to tear off the cover. I actually stuck the entire thing, with the paper cover and all in my mouth. Gosh... what an embarrassing thing man... especially when there were hundreds of cars behind ours; looking at us while waiting for their turn. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This new template is a tribute to Dessy boy coz I know how much you love AFI. Hope you like it sweets :) Haven't really gotten it to look the way I want it to though... to hell man coz I'm exhausted. My eyes are halfway crossed while I was configuring the HTML. aaargh. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Way You Look Tonight - Tony Bennett Some day, when I'm awfully low, When the world is cold, I will feel a glow just thinking of you... And the way you look tonight. Yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm And your cheeks so soft, There is nothing for me but to love you, And the way you look tonight. With each word your tenderness grows, Tearing my fear apart... And that laugh that wrinkles your nose, It touches my foolish heart. Lovely ... Never, ever change. Keep that breathless charm. Won't you please arrange it ? 'Cause I love you ... Just the way you look tonight. Just the way you look tonight. Saturday, October 04, 2003
I wrote a whole lot of stuff but I'm too numb to type it out. It'll only remind me of my short-comings...
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Had a fabulous day. Got a studded black leather belt and Dessy got me a cool T-shirt from 2001 at Far East that says 'Property of no one'. Like, whoa! -grinning away like mad- Met up with Colin and Ray at BK Borders and it's nice to see Colin cacat after so long. Still as funny and cacat as ever... heh... His hair so short now... -whinewhinewhine- Trent fetched me from town and we got ourselves strawberry snowshake bubble tea (which is the ONLY bubble tea i drink) on the way home. Nice right woman?? Toldja. -pouts- So like Dessy's absolutely a perfect gentleman for the day. I can't forget today man... so nice and carefree. It's good when you tell your parents the truth. Like blatantly, 'I'm going out with my boyfriend to celebrate our 6 month anniversary.' And surprise surprise, they go 'Okay be home by blah blah blah.' Like, F***! Lucky lucky day! Okay sorry for the cursing... Trent's been influencing me. -wags an accusing finger at you- ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I don't know what to feel. Your touch makes me weak and I could've sworn my knees buckled when you put your arms around my waist. I feel like I can spend eternity in your arms and sacrifice the entire world just so I can have you. To hell with conscience. To hell with consequences. To hell with whatever's right. Just us. You and me. We'll be happy. We'll forget about everyone and everything. We will we will we will. But I know we won't. Thursday, October 02, 2003
So Rashid and I had a fight. I went berserk for the first time in my life, and he, who is 3 times my size, freaked out and called the police. But realizing his mistake, he quicky packed his stuff, upped and left even before the police came. So Mom and I had to give the cute policeman our statements. What high drama on a lazy Thursday afternoon...
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- HAPPY 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY DESSY BOY!!! kisskisskisskisskisskisskisskiss - slobber everywhere- --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Thank you Sheha for the super duper cute kitty bookmark!! I tell you guys, I'm like the luckiest gurl man. I have great friends who shower me with presents and treats for no rhyme or reason!! Jeez peeps... I love you guys!!! -everybody go AWWW or else I'll slap you. hahaha- --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm in a state of confusion. Trent how? --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yesterday was good and bad. Spent the day with Sheha studying. Trent appered and well, surprise surprise. Heh. Confusion broke loose but everything's okay now. Sweet Gloria dropped by to be a good pal :) Thanks babe, nice to see you. See you for the haircut tomorrow! Hung out with Trent at PS before she went to work. Her funny friend Sunny was hitting on me. But nice fella nonetheless. hahaha Met Dessy and we went around slacking.. at many many neighbourhood places. hahaha! What a way to spend our anniversary man... hahaha! Skipped school but it was great being with Des... eeh, lets sing the Simple Simon says thingy again okay.. so fun! heheh.. we went around AngMoKio and Bishan to search for my favourite Care Bear but we only found the ugly orange ones left... so sad... :( The only bad part was my tummy cramps were killing me... Hell yea man. Heyho to Eugene NOOBie!! :) archives
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