Kejin and I at Breko =) Happy happy day!



Kejin prompting me to do various 'poses' so these were what I could come up with.Yes yes, I'm not imaginative nor cute at all. Haha.
And my nose looks huge. Urgh.

Met Kejin yesterday at Holland V for lunch and then hung out at Breko. It was sooooo fun!!! We just sat there for hours on end amidst the cold weather yakking and stuffing ourselves silly and we took polaroid photos and digital photos and I didn't even notice that it was super late and I had to be home. Haha. It's awesome to see you again and hang out with you gurly!! Must meet more more k... you're hilarious! Can you believe she calls herself mushroom head and helmut because of her hair?? Hahaha. Don't forget to email me the photos ya, coz my digicam battery died. Haha.

PS: I love the earrings!! It's so funny, we bought each other earrings as presents. Haha.

The kittens are such a handful man. Spotty keeps sucking on Straight's nipples til Straight fell sick. And Opium's just so lovely =) She's so clever and she always stares at me with her ang moh blue eyes and she's so fond of sucking on the skin between my index finger and thumb. It's like so cute, she'll get high and just go *chort chort chort* One fat furball who likes to climb all over me =)
-beams with pride like a true blue mother- hahaha

Met Dessy for lunch today and he's looking awesome =) My Dessy Dessy Dearie! It's so nice to laugh and just be myself with him again. I won't tell anyone what you did in the cinema while watching 'Shutter' ya? Shhh!

Hab cooked pasta for me today and honestly, I think I reek of cream pasta. I eat broccoli pasta every single week and I've been eating it for the past 3 days straight! Sigh... not only is my appetite expanding, so is my waistline =(

I'm happy now. I think I really am. I thought Dessy changed, I thought he's gone but I'm so so wrong. He's there, within reach, smiling and squinting under the bright sun =)

I know this entry's filled with smiley faces and what-not but I can't help it =) There I go again. Hee!

My new sweater and belt!!! OK ok it's not exactly a belt, it's more like a scarf but yea I use it as a belt coz it's so pretty! I think it's time for me to repaint my black walls, it looks like dark grey now man. haha. Any takers to help me repaint my room?



The caps in question. Grins.
Yeah I bought her the first one but she doesn't like it and we changed for the latter...aiya no comments man, both looks nice to me. Haha.



+

I can't wait to repierce my navel man. I mean, the lady said I can only do it after 6 months and like the stupid stud fell off my navel in August and and and... 6 months will be in February next year!!! I can't wait THAT long boy!!! Aaaargh! I wanna pierce now now now. I don't know why I have the urge so badly to get it pierced but yeah, I just want something to be pierced. Maybe pierce my ears where it's not the lobe there... don't know what it's called. Haha.

Have been to Topshop 3 days in a row.

Saturday was to shop around for my sweater and belt (which I've already bought. shall update the photos when I can!).

Yesterday was to buy Hab's cap and sweet sweet Joel gave me a 30% discount. I mean, I haven't seen her in like, 5 long years yet she gave me staff discount! And like she was so nice and all... and she's looking pretty awesome too ;) unfortunately the 10million tattoos kinda scarred her... No offence to my tattoo weilding friends, my comment only applies to darling Joel. haha

And today we rushed down to Wisma to exchange the cap coz Hab didn't like it, only to find out that they only have the cap at the Suntec outlet. Sigh.

So off we trooped to meet Dayak coz he was interviewing me for his project thingy and omg it was so weird to be talking to a camera with everyone's eyes on you! It was so embarrassing... But oh well, I do appreciate some publicity if the commercial he was doing gets aired in Japan. Hahaha.

So we had to head down to Suntec to change Hab's cap and get my sweater but oh nooooooo, they just don't have my sweater there. I could've burst into tears I tell ya! I mean, here I am running all over Singapore and taking cabs everyday like nobody's business and these irritating shops just don't know their products at all! For fucks sakes, if we are willing to pay for a $66 overpriced sweater, at least give us the right info. Tsk.

So headed down to work and dear ol Hab went back to Wisma to get me the sweater for me since I had to go to work. Thank you dearie!!!!! And yes now I have the humongous Topshop plastic bag at my feet and I'm just grinning from ear to ear. Haha.

I've been over spending man, really. Let me see... the Havaiina slippers, the belt, the sweater, the heels, the earrings, the endless cab fares... all in less than TWO weeks!! I'm soooo bankrupt man.... actually I think I spent on much more than that, what with the kittens milk and baby bottles and Hab's cap and some presents... Oh lordie I'm dead meat!!!

My new kitty!!!
O-P-I-U-M
Isn't she adorable??
Found her at some void deck... she's so fat with folded ears and blue eyes, how can I not adopt her right? But she's so naughty... she refuses to drink the milk from the milk bottle. Sigh...



These are the rest of her siblings. We decided to take care of them til they are big enough to fend for themselves in the outside world. I mean, we can't possibly keep 4 freaking fat kitties in the house man. The 2nd photo shows Spottie taking a bite at Opium's tail. hahaha. They are so cheeky! I call the 2 black ones Straight and Crooked coz that's the only way I can differentiate between them. One has a crooked tail, the other one has a straight one. haha




And that's me and Hab at Sentosa =) yay!

We bought 2 ringer tshirts each from Penin and I'm absolutely elated. Like, finally I can do my silkscreen stuff man! She bought me the earrings, the polaroid, and she's been treating me to ice cream and our favourite 7/11 whipped potato everyday. I feel so bad man coz I didn't do that much for her birthday. In fact all I bought her was the Ralph Lauren perfume and the FCUK tshirt. Hai...

+

I hate empty promises. Don't promise me things if you're not going to fulfil it.

+

Went to Sentosa to tan yesterday before heading off to work and took many many photos, shall update when I have the time =) Finally I got my Sentosa Islander card so free entry from now onwards!! Grins.

+

Messaged Kejin at midnight yesterday night to wish her an advanced happy birthday and now I feel like a fool. She must be thinking that I forgot her birthday but noooooooooooooo! I remember it's th 19th! Remember when we were at the Borders traffic light 3 weeks ago and I told you your birth date? Yaaa! Sorry if I gave you a shock when I messaged you yesterday night, just wanna be the first to tell you happy 20th birthday =)

I'm sorry your friends are not able to meet you for dinner on your birthday =) I'm no better either coz I have to work... I'll meet you next week on my off day to pass you your prezzie k? Cheer up, your friends love you very much,rest assured. It's just that they are busy...

+

Work is bad. Very very bad. I'm not built to handle nasty people man. Argh.

The first earring's from Hab, the 2nd and 3rd earrings' from my lovely cousin. All birthday presents. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Wishes do come true, in bulks at that. Grins.



That's Cocoa, a grand aunt's fat kitty. So cute!!



1st photo: Me in a 1970s old skool photo at Hab's place with my favourite kitty kat!! Handchem! She bought me a polaroid too. Heh heh. I'm one happy chick boy!

2nd photo: Handchem!!!!!!! Cute Persian kitty that I'm supposed to have! Grrr...

3rd photo: Bear, my favourite kitty from the Aunt's place!

4th photo: Adek, the other fat kitty at my Aunt's place. Fatty bom bom.

I'm just so tired. Sleeping at 2am and waking up at 7 everyday isn't the best way to look fresh and perky man.

Met him just now. Looks fabulous.Apparently been swimming and blading. I wonder why the sudden vanity kicked in... Hmm.. wasn't like this at all when I was dating him. In fact the only time he actually exercises was when he had to take his IPPT or something. Sigh... such a pity he's looking great and not even within my reach... This sadness lingering in my heart is just dampening my festive mood tragically... I wish I can write things in here without the prying eyes of the unwanted. But I know I can't write much in here anymore since I've lost all privacy that I always thought I had... so so unfortunate...

She bought lunch for me coz thank god or else I would've starved to death since the canteen's closed.

Strawberry jam time of the month lah. Grins.

aaargh. been working, working and WORKING. I hate my job. So what if it pays well? It's making me stress out everyday,even when I'm not working.

Kejin!!! I forgot all about our xodus shoes deal, and now got no more sale =( sorry sorry! Aiya and I hope to join you at Zouk after Hari Raya. hehehe.

Anyways, been going nuts making kueh tats, cookies, cakes, etc for Hari Raya... it's like this event is becoming a nuisance of a burden instead of a festivity man.

Gotta go back to work now... sigh...

PS: Can't wait for your party Trent! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

If only you have any idea of how lonely I am, you wouldn't keep me in this way. What goes on in my mind is affecting my entire body yet none of you can see it. Am I just extremely complicated, or am I just a good actress or it's just that you can't be bothered to read me? I'm emotionally dying from the boredom but I'm in such a dilemma that I feel is unfair to me.

One side of me is dying to go out with my friends and have fun the way I like to but the other half is tugging my heartstrings, begging me to stay home with my family. I know mom and dad are lonely... I've been home every single day to break fast with them, I only break fast outside once. It keeps them happy when I'm home. Dad's very happy to watch the television with me every night until he falls asleep coz his son is no longer like a son but a stranger. So it's up to the daughter to keep him happy. When Mom goes out every night for prayers, he'll ask me 10 times what time she'll be home coz he's so lonely and he wants to talk to my mom. My heart breaks for him =(

But I want to be a 19 year old. I want to go out with my friends after work, I want to go to parties by spin meisters I adore, I want to join my best friends for a game of mahjong, I want to go to jamming sessions without having a curfew of a 12 year old. Even if I don't have a curfew, sometimes I think I'd go home early to be with my parents. They are growing old and they're lonely. I don't want to deprive them of the happiness they deserve at this age...

I'm so torn in between and it's getting me so depressed lately. When I'm home with them, I try to make them as happy as I can but I'm so sad inside... How can I pull on a long face in front of them? I don't want them asking me why only to find out it's because of them. It'll kill them. It scares me to think that I'm half dead inside yet I can't do anything to make it better...

If I have my way, I'd see my friends every single day. But with this dilemma and the curfew... I only get to see them thrice a year... Even as my birthday is approaching and some friends and I are planning to head to the Groove Armada party at Cocco Latte, I'm not too sure if I want that coz then Mom and Dad would be worried sick if I'm out so late... it'll be okay if I'm going with Des coz they only trust him but obviously I'm not going with him...

I dont know. Things aren't looking very bright. Even the prospect of getting a huge amount of money on the 16th isn't cheering me up. What's the point of earning so much money when I hate the job, I hate the place, I hate the people, I am just so unhappy? Every single day is misery. Please remind me why I'm making myself go through this? oh yeah it's because once upon a time I thought earning so much money would solve all the problems life has to offer. Somebody should scream in face that's wrong, please.

Oh shit the test is starting. Aaargh today's last day of training which means tomorrow onwards no free access to the net!! Gtg before I get caught!!