HAPPY BELATED 20TH BIRTHDAY LIN!!!!!!!!

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I hope you and your sayang will have a great future ahead together =)

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Okay she's trying very hard to piss me off but no, I shall not retaliate by responding to her mean words even though she insulted someone I care for.

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Okay anyhoos, fuck it about Saturday's happenings. It's too long and we all had a great time, so that's that.

Atan, Colin, Calvin, Ray, Lin, Herda, Sondee, Man, Giam, Alfie, Ruby, Gene, Terence, gf, Crystal and Sweeden (Yes her name's really Sweeden and her mom's called Switzerland. Hahaha)

Pre gig was spent lounging at the Kopitiam with them boys tricking me into drinking what I thought was orange juice, but was actualy Colin's version of a screwdriver. But it tasted so damn good nonetheless =)

Gig time was awesome for USV's set but KOK fucked up a little here and there, but it really wasn't as bad as they thought it was, really.

Post gig was the 8 of us trooping over to Funan's KFC which was superb what with Man's crack-ass lame-shit jokes!! Hahaha. I absolutely adore that boy man!

Atan got into a minor bike accident on Friday night after partying til 8am. I wanted to yell SERVE YOU RIGHT!!! but I felt so sorry for him... he had high fever and was in the worst foul mood ever on Saturday.

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I'm sorry I turned out this way but you yourself is to be blamed for depriving me of all the attentioin I deserved since February. You can do what you want with her but then you'll know that 'us' is truly over. I don't wanna keep you around when all we do is fight and bicker. It's never going to be the same again. We'll never be like old times. I'm sure you're smart enough to see that far... I hate it when you're like some emo fuck doing all those krazy shit you did. I dated you because you are sane and smart, not because you're emo and stupid.

So just forget about me and move on. Please.

Will update Saturday's happenings when I have the time, meanwhile, photos courtesy of Herda. Hehehe



Omg I love this photo!! That's Herda, me and Lin =) Such pwetty pwetty friends...



Herda so pwetty and sexy!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Yes Man, Blowjobs 101 was extremely useful and sorry we couldn't be at Wu Bar no matter how many times you repeated it every 30 minutes. Hahaha.



Krazy Man doing his thang which was awesome. He's a great performer I tell ya!

Oh damn this crazy crazy life.

Condolences to Herda for your loss, am here for you gurlfriend even though we aren't that close. Take care and see you at Saturday's gig, if you're going.

Discovered the joys of mascara, MAC blusher and lipglass, eyelash curlers and hair curlers.

Absolutely dry financially after the whole shopping expedition during my first week of payday.

Been frustrated emotionally because of him and her but what the hey, I hafta make a decision by the end of this month and then everything would be over.

Been screwing up so much at work that I got a verbal warning. Sigh... just been so absolutely distracted since I met him. I feel awful for being so careless at work and losing their trust...

I have nobody to blame but myself for everything that's happened.

So we went to Hotel 81 at Bencoolen trying to get a room with a DVD player but nooooo, the fools told us no more rooms even though we called up in advance to enquire and reserve. Fuckface bitches were so rude that I said in front of them 'Lets just go and find another hotel. I don't want to be here' and we walked off. We walked around the entire Bencoolen stretch and called up so many Hotel 81s around the vicinity that I think we could've been tour guides with our knowledge! FINALLY the one at Balestier has a room with a DVD player available. So us 6 gurls rushed down in 2 seperate cabs after wasting an hour.

THe show was boring. There was only one lesbian sex scene which wasn't even hot coz Angelina's boobs are so droopy that it could probably hold a pencilbox if you stuck it there.

I bought us $70 worth of drinks. Got us a Rossa Martini and Smirnoff and rootbeer and 7 Up and Orange Juice and they brought Bacardi and Old CHang Kee and none of us are drinkers so it was funny when we drank whatever we mixed and all the faces would scrunge up and someone would try to puke in the toilet. Hahaha...

It was a fun night lar, minus the fact that 6 badak gurls had to squeeze into a tiny hotel room.

Work is awful. Tsk.

We gurls are gonna live it up tonight =)

Hotel 81. Angelina Jolie & Gia. Drinks all on me tonight. Hab. Yam. Zara. Yam. Meera.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

(Psst: Don't tell my mummy!)

I miss you so much.

What in the world did I do that's so wrong that I can't be spared from all these sadness? After all that I've gone thru all these years, I think I deserve some happiness... I'm not even 21 yet and I've had more dying thoughts than happy thoughts.

Why so jaded at such a young age? You tell me. What with their curfews, what with her sticking around when she shouldn't be, what with his stupid NS shit and confinement crappolas, what with their duties as the bosses of the company to belittle us small fries, what with their constant reminder of what a nothingness I am. I don't wish that I'm dead anymore. I just wish none of you ever stepped into my life.

I need my gurl friends back. Hanging out with boys is getting boring. Atan. Colin. Hamdan. Syafii. Ivan. Jonathan. Netty. (OK technically she's a gurl but she's a dyke so I consider her a man, sorta.).

Ask me out again ladiesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

I was wearing the KOK tshirt on Sunday.

An Ang Moh came up to me and asked if I was a skatergurl.

Bwarhahahaha

Just because I was wearing a band tshirt, with dark red nail polish, straight black hair, sneakers and 3 inches of my tummy showing.

Hmm... now I know I shouldn't be judging people so fast.

But Hab said I looked like Bo Bice.

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He's a man Hab!!!

So she said I looked like Karen Carpenter instead, just to 'console' me coz Karen's a woman. Karen Carpenter's a dead anorexic Hab, I'd rather not be compared to any of them, thank you.

I'm not happy now. Sudden outbursts of either tears or foul words are uncommon if you are around me lately... I know perfectly why what's been causing my misery but I just can't seem to make things better.

Went window shopping with Herda on Saturday and it was fun fun CAPITAL F-U-N!!!! Hahaha. Herdaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! Upload our photos on my photobucket pwease pwease pwease so I can show off to my readers what a hot friend I have!! Tee hee heeee

We went from Zara Liat to Topshop to Taka to Heeren to Paragon within like 2 hours?? And lunch at Spageddies and margaritas at 1.30pm in the afternoon (yes we are krazy chickas!!) and palm reading and me choking on my pasta and the waiters cheking her out and Hamdan not telling me my thong was exposed and the manager suspiciously questioning us if we are legally 18 and our giggles!!!! Herda I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahahaha

Must go out again ok ok?? But no we shall not rush like mad like the other day. Yeap. And I shall try to buy something coz I honestly couldn't find anything I like on Saturday =(

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Why is it when we are attached, men would start clambering all over our frail little hearts? But when we're single, nobody's around to even look at us! I hate I hate I hate conflicting feelings and guilt-ridden apologies... You say you love me, but do you? He says he loves me too. She says she loves me too. They say they love me too. But do you people really mean it or are you just playing around coz I happen to be there at the right time, right place, right words and with the right clothes?

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How could I possibly let go when I owe so much to you? Obligations amounting to unaccountable limits but I just want out. Out out out....