http://www.suzi9mm.com/index.php

Check that link out and the photos.

-shudders-

Morbid man, absolutely morbid. Of course, there's beauty in it but it also makes me weak and dizzy by just looking at them... hahaha. I'm sucha pussy.

But after looking at the photos, I was like kinda scared of the world and what it might do to me when I'm alone. I'll never know when I'll get kidnapped and murdered/raped/tortured, right? It might be a stranger, it might be an enemy, it might even be a loved one! So I just kinda hold back on my trust for the moment... jeez my hands are still trembling and my lips are still pale from the shock of the photos. Hahaha.

Weird la. I find them sexy and beautiful (in a morbid fascination) at the same time it's too gory for my looking. What about you? =)

Why do I always encounter blogging problems when I'm blogging at home????

Argh!

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I think this is hilarious. Haha. Okay for my non-Malay readers, I'm so sorry you can't enjoy this piece. But it's damn fucking spot-on lar! About guys okay! It makes me think about how the 'Before' part is Epain, and the 'After' part is a certain ex-boyfriend... that's why he's an EX now! Haha. I don't wanna name names la... later I paiseh him unnecessarily... not very nice right... okay enjoy!

before and after marriage

1. ANGKATKAN BEG
B4: Come syg, let me carry d bag 4 u. Kesian u..
Afta: Beg u pun u malas nk bawa. Lain kali jgn bawa beg ah!

2. TERSUNGKUR BATU
B4: Syg, u ok? Bodoh nye batu! Nk pegi hospital?
Afta: Jln betul2 la! Buta ke? Batu tu macam besar pun tk nampak!

3. PAKAI SEXY
B4: Lawanye u pakai baju ni. Turn on!
Afta: Hey, tk tau malu eh? Tgk nampak longkang tu! Babat berlapis2! Awak pakai, saya yg malu tau!

4. MANJA DI PUBLIC
B4: Manjanye syg i ni. Mcm i nak gigit2, nak romen dgn u skrg jugak!
Afta: Oi! Org tgk ah! Da tua pun tk malu ke?

5. KEMPUNAN
B4: U nk makan burger ramly? Ok, besok i masuk JB belikan u eh syg..
Afta: Burger McD pun sama pe! Jgn cerewet ah! Makan je!

6. KECANTIKAN
B4: Kalau pakai make up tebal pun dia kata cantik.
Afta: Ape ni make up mcm tepung gomak? Wayang pekji pun kalah tau! Bulan2 asyik beli make up je!

7. KEKAYAAN
B4: U tkde bnyk duit pun, i tetap syg u. Kekayaan tk menjanji kan kebahagiaan.
Afta: Tu la, dulu tk nk blajar betul2. Skrg baru nk menyesal! Duit tong sampah bulan ni camne?

8. SEX
B4: Kalau kita kawin, hari2 i nk main dgn u.
Afta: Eh, i penat tau! Ingat i robot ke? Gatal!

9. KESABARAN
B4: Sudala syg, jgn merajuk. Yelah, i salah. I minta maaf. Maafkan i eh?
Afta: Da buat salah tk nk mengaku. Tau nk merajuk je. Awak punye pasal ah! Tk kuasa aku!

10. MASAKAN
B4: Sedapnye u masak (walaupun tk sedap)
Afta: Mak u tak ajar masak ke? Ni Nasi lemak ke nasi basi?


11. DUIT NO PROBLEM
B4: Syg, kita mkn dekat restoran mahal tu eh? Mahal tkpela, skali skala...
Afta: Mak oi! Pe mahal! Da la! Mee grg mamak pat haig rd lagi sedap. Tak mau ah!

12. LUV PEGI LUV BALIK
B4: Bye syg, I luv u too. Muaks! Miss u la syg. (Padahal smlm baru jumpe)
Afta: Ah, ok bye! Tk bole la. Kawan i ade ni! Bye la bye la!

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Yesterday we went to MoS... That's our pics =)
I look so fat and my hair sucks... Urgh.
Then I went for a boring karaoke session at Maxwell and had seafood supper at Lau Pa Sat. Got home at 7am, and spent like a hundred bucks today alone. Grrr... money fly just like that!!!

i'm so fucking pissed. I typed a super long entry yesterday but then it's all wiped out! Aaaargh!! So fucking frustrating man!

Okay forget it, the gist of it is this, he took me to Fort Canning to have 'a talk' and you know la, when your other half says that to you, it ain't good man! So I was wondering on the bike all the way to Fort Canning like, what the hell did I do that's so wrong man? I mean, as far as I know, I've been a pretty good and obedient gurlfriend!

So he dropped the bomb. He said that some people at some of the clubs that I used to frequent has a pretty bad impression of me, like well, I have a bad reputation. And why? All because I party with this particular group of gurls. It's ridiculous la! Just because they are what they are, doesn't mean that I'm like them man!

I know it shouldn't affect me since it was months ago and anyways at that point of time I was single. but I actually burst into tears after he told me everything!

Okay just to make things clear, I only gave my number to guys at a club TWICE okay. In my entire 21 years on this Earth, only 2 guys got my number at a club. The 1st was Aza who turned out to be an asshole the 2nd is epain, who is currently my boyfriend. So yeah. don't anyhow label me a cheapo who distributes her number any-o-how okay. Just go and ask my friends that. Tsk. sure I have many male friends at clubs, but I see them there every week what, but I don't give them my number!

I am fully aware that for the 3 months that I moved out last year, I became a pretty wild gurl. I mean please la, after all the curfews and rules imposed on me while I was at home, then I finally get to be on my own, of course I'll be like damn suaku what! Of course I lead life with no limits and do what I want what! But I certainly didn't want and never will want to fuck around man!! Just because

I drink alot
smoke alot
party alot
bring friends home alot
wear revealing clothes alot
dance sexily alot
have too many male friends that I can't even count them with the fingers on my hands and the toes on my feet,

just because of THOSE things! It doesn't mean that I fuck around!

So frustrating man! We used to bring guys home practically everyday, so maybe that's what got us labelled with such tags. But we do normal things in a home! Just because a house is filled with gurls and boys doesn't mean that we're having a mass orgy ya know!!!

i mean please la, Lisa sleeps in her room while the rest of us sleep outside. Sometimes when she doesn't have her boyfriend with her, I'll sleep in the room with her. When the boys come over, we do NORMAL things that young people like us do. Okay like...

cook maggi and crap alot.
drink and pass out in the living room.
play cards and occasionally gamble with like $0.10 or $0.20 at the most.
watch HBO til we have to go to work.
watch DVDs and cry and laugh together.
getting ready and fighting over the mirror before partying (yes, even the boys do that)
play Yahoo games for eternity (ie: sri and Lisa)
play Xbox and Playstation2 for eternity (ie: me and whoever who's willing to get trashed by me. huahahahaha!)
smoke our lungs out and yak yak yak about life, work and love
put on facial masks on each other weekly (boys included)
sing along to SUPER LOUD blasting music and dance the cacat dance
do the dishes, do the laundry, vaccuum and mop, repair things...
suntan at the rooftop, only to realize banglas are actually peeping from behind the roof of the next house (traumatizing!)
have house parties and pass out on the living room floor, once again.
gather at our place before we all head out to party
play around with our make up and clothes endlessly

Yea guys sleep in our house with us but so fucking what man? We don't sleep in rooms as couples, all of us just sleep on many many mattresses in the living room! So what hanky panky can we get up to right? NONE! We are wild, yes yes yes. But we are normal kids who feel ashamed too. And it's not like as if I sleep with dunno-who and Sri sleeps with dunno-who. It's like I sleep with Sri on a mattress and they boys sleep on another mattress or on the sofa! Haiya! Some of you people go on holidays la, go chalets la, you overnight with your boyfriends and your friends right? Well it's the same situation with me and my friends la! except that maybe you people indulge in bbq-ed food and decent card games, we choose to indulge in blackjack and alcohal instead!

I know they are my friends but I also know what they are up to sometimes behind closed doors even though they deny it. I have nothing against such people because afterall, it's your choice right? If you people want to talk about religion or morales to me, please la. Spare me the details. We know what's right and what's wrong yet we choose to rebel because we want to and we're willing to bear the consequences. So if we feel that way, then I don't see why you people should care. But as for me, i just don't think it's fair that i'm being labelled for something I didn't even do!

well, they choose to do it and they're in control right? So it's not that they're cheap, they just like it. But of course, I don't tolerate those who sleep with someone's husband/fiance/boyfriend (but under certain circumstance, I do tolerate la... ahem ahem)...

But really la, it's a personal choice. And I choose not to be associated with such tags because I've had enough of such tags in JC. That was traumatising enough man... *shudders*

Sigh... the boyfriend told me that he's gonna cut me some slack. If I were to party with them, he'll be around me. But if I were to party with my primary, secondary, JC and outside friends, he'll let me go on my own coz he trusts me and he trusts them.

But I would rather he parties with me ya know? Coz no matter what, when we're in love, we want to party together, chill together, do everything together!

And also because he's my one and only house dance partner =)
We really dance cute when we're together okay! But don't expect him to budge when RnB's playing la... he'll just stand there and give the bouncers a run for their money. Hehehe... and I'll be shimmying around him like an RnB princess on da loose! Huahahaha. Okay okay enough!

I just love to party with him la... nothing makes me happier than being able to dance with him coz afterall, he's my boyfriend what. Why the hell would I wanna dance with other guys right?? No need lah!

So yar. After a long night of talking and compromising and mosquito bites, he told me to watch the way I behave even though we all know I'm not that type of gurl. Of course he told me loads more but I can't put it all here la.. later you guys know, you'll blackmail me, I die. Haha.

Bye bye :~(

It was a very very bad weekend...

What with the ex's confrontations...
The bike being clamped and having to pay $100 for the fine...
Walking from Marina Promenade to Somerset MRT and back at 2.30am in the morning...
Fighting with the Mother and becoming hysterical...
Heavy rain at Sentosa and stuck at Siloso Beach for 3 hours...

And work?

Sigh... work can't get any worse than this now...

Can't wait for payday.

Then I can pay off my bills. I hate outstanding bills ya know? I'd rather starve for the rest of the month than to know that I owe somebody/some organisation money. Yeap.

By the way my number's changed. The old number's been terminated and I got a new one.

Add me on msn luxxxylisbon@hotmail.com and I'll tell ya my new number. I'd appreciate it if you DON'T give it to anyone else when I give it to ya coz I have reasons for changing my number, okay?

Thank you and keep in touch =)

Spent the day at Sentosa with Hab and it was soooooo fun! Teeheehee... now I'm a lovely shade of brown =) Happy happy me...

Dinner at Coffee Club was awesome. Of course, we had our usual salmon fettucine, country chicken, baked bolo and seafood lasagne. (I don't know how to spell that) Plus soups, desserts and nice tea =) Okok we sound like pigs right considering the fact that it was dinner for 2 but what the hell, it was fucking good!

We realised that CoffeeClub @ Cali Fitness Heeren there has the widest range for menu, and Paragon has the worst.

Service wise, Harbourfront is the best, Paragon the worst.

Food quality wise, Harbourfront is the best, and whoopdeedoo Paragon's the worst again.

Ironic isn't it? The Paragon's outlet is supposed to be abit more atas than the rest since it's at Paragon, but it's the worst of the lot. Somemore we used to go there so often, like every single week to have lunch since I used to work there, yet the staff were only friendly towards us after a month or so. So fucking eksyen la... dunno for what also...

Am heading out to hit some club now, waiting for the boyfriend to fetch. He's late as always. I'm thinking of teaching him a lesson or two... hmm...

That's us at Nini's chalet yesterday night. Gawd I was exhausted man.. I had to go straight after work, and wednesday I only had 3 hours of sleep, so yeah! haha. But it was such great fun and the food was pretty awesome =) I love these gurls la... it's so nice and funny around them. Especially yan!! She's like a lunatic or something! Hahaha.

Now now now, how can we forget watching American Idol (and Yan's impersonation) and the 4th Dimension show (and everyone freaking out) and Mel's flying prawn and matchmaking Aidah to what's-his-name and aidah and I getting lost and all of our giggles and screams? :)

So fun.

Can't wait to party with them on the 25th =)

That's us at Momo yesterday night. Blardy hell Lisa, Kin and Ina buay us. In the end it was just the 3 of us but it was fun nonetheless coz we saw many many other friends in the club!!

It's fantastic now man coz they've raised the age limit to Male 23, Females 21 and there's no longer free entry for guys so all the underaged blardy cheapskate guys no longer patronize the place. Which is great coz these people are usually the mat designs or gangster types and because of them, Momo has a fight every single fucking week. Tsk.

Now Momo's a nice 'atas' club with all the yuppies, good looking Chinese gurls and guys, older and more sophisticated Malay crowd and of course, the krazy Ang Mohs. So yea, Momo's done well for itself after the change in ruling =)

Got home fucking drunk coz I had 12 vodka sprites in less than 2hours. Tsk. After not drinking alcohol for so long, suddenly vodka tastes sweet. And after not dancing to RnB for so long, I felt awkward moving to the beat. Haha. Was so tempted to do the Zouk dance but no I couldn't coz they were playing RnB, not house. haha.

I think the boyfriend should be damn happy and thankful I'm not the type of gurl to believe in this Valentines day nonsense.

It's a bloody propaganda ya know? Everyone's out to ketuk your money and everywhere's packed to the brim.

But don't give me the nonsense everyday is like Valentines day if you're in love too. This is real life people, reality bites.

We all have problems even though we all are capable of loving.

But to whimper and sulk if your boyfriend/lover/husband doesn't give you something up to your expectations on Vday is ridiculous. Just because your colleague's bouquet is bigger than yours doesn't mean your other half loves you lesser you know.

As for singles, all the better. No pressure for you to crack your head to please your other half and no need to bomb your wallets either.

As for me?

I'd like to think of myself as a cynical, jaded gurl. Unfortunately Ivve outgrown the phase whereby Vday is a day I excitedly wait for my boyfriend to surprise me because well, so what if he does? He surprises me from time to time on the other 364 days of the year too anyways!

I hate to think that I'll be just like one of them mass-minded people following the Vday tradition blindly. Why?
Because everyone else is doing too.
Because every other gurl is getting flowers too.
Because every other couple gets a good fuck too.
I mean, come off it la! Is it just one day of the year to show how much your loved one means to you? Bullshit man. One fantastic day spent romantically with a good screw isn't equals to a loving relationship you know.

Sure I'm mocking them and some of these them are my friends. But I didn't intend any personal attacks okay. I'm just saying that’s what I think and of course, as Adrian says, I'm one in a million. (maybe not la… I'm prolly one in a thousand. Haha). It's funny lambasting these generic mindsets with him. He's really smart and funny. You people know that? And we have a lot in common too! And we're always on the same frequency! Weeeeeeee! (Again, no pun intended. Haha)

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I found this letter that I wrote for sri a few weeks back. Check it out. Haha.



Dear Sri Sayang,

I hate this job. It's such a fucking hassle to come to work because (1), it's far and I have to change MRT & bus. (2), I have to wake up at 6.30am in the friggin' morning. (3), it's so bloody difficult, i don't know what's going on half the time. (4), the pay suck ass. It's ridiculously low for a call centre job.

Is that enough reasons for me to quit? Yes, it's MORE than enough reasons for me to chao romano. I wish I can work the night shift with you... But I can't.

You know why? Because (1), I'm scared my boyfriend would get up to nonsense when I'm not around 4 nights a week. (2), my parents would kill me. (3), I can never party anymore. (Boo hoo hoO!) (4), I'll sleep thruout the day after coming back from work, thus wasting my days, thus meaning I won't have a social life!

Besides, even though the colleagues are nice, the office politics can kill me man. Argh! Can't you see I'm not built for things like this??? I really want to quit this stupid job laaar! Today alone I got so many bloody nonsense cases... fuck lar. Woman, help me look out for a new job ok!! Aku tak suka keje ni! Orang orang dia baik dan best, tapi tak cukup untuk buat I stay kat sini!! Aaargh!! Get me outta here asap!!!!

wuv, siti

PS: I love you sayaaaaaaaaaaaang! Cheer up k!!

Bwarhahahaha. My sentiments have changed k. That letter was written like 2 weeks ago. ha.

PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DJ WEE LIKE ME aka ADRIAN WEE FROM POPTART IS TALKING TO ME ON MSN NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HE ADDED ME ON MSN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M GONNA CRY from being absolutely deliriously ecstatically overjoyed and thrilled and jubilant and elated!! The sense of euphoria is overwhelming!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (No pun intended! hahaha)

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I HATE GOING TO WORK.

SINGAPOREANS ARE UGLY FUCKERS ESPECIALLY ON THE MORNING TRAIN.

AND THEY STINK.

FUCK YOU CHEEBAIS.

I'LL NEVER BE LIKE YOU ASSHOLES.

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Yesterday went to town to talk to van for a while then walked around town with the boyfriend...

Went to tamp to buy cheap cigarettes and slacked with the Vanquish peeps til 2am.

I woke up this morning with my right eye literally closed coz I was too sleepy. Argh.

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SUNDAY 12 FEBRUARY 2006

HOME was fucking awesome yesterday night.

They actually played Get Up Kids, Chemical Brothers, the Cure, Placebo and stuff! Oh my Lordy... I was in heaven!! But the boyfriend was miserable coz it wasn't really his kinda place and music. Haha. We couldn't stand the pretentious fuckers who infested the place either... it seems to me that 50% of them are mere posers and the other 50% are kids from the gig scene.

Went to Spize to have late supper (or should I say breakfast since it was 6am. hahaha) and we met up with Boy, Martin, Fala and Shafeeq. So cute la them irritants... Hehe.

How can I not like watching the squabbling gay lovers (Boy and Martin) getting at each others' tits? Heh. I miss them. Haven't seen them in weeks, considering the fact that Ipin and I have been hanging out with his other friends of late! Got home at 7.30am and Dad wasn't too happy. Tee hee hee... what can I say? It's a Saturday Dad! Gimme face!

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Met up with Aidah in town before that and we had so much fun gurly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha. It's great la when you know somebody for 10 years and even though you don't regularly meet up, you can just blurt everything out to that person when you eventually meet because there's a mutual trust. Don't worry sayang, whatever that was exchanged yesterday will just be kept between us coz I'm not what I used to be. We are all adults now and I cannot be bothered holding grudges against people or inteferring in others' lives. We all have much better things to think about rather than wasting our time squabbling with other bitches or hoes. I know for a fact that I myself am too cooped up in my own problems and insecurities to put my finger into somebody else's pie.

As long as I have her and the rest of them sweeties as friends, I can safely say I feel like a complete gurly.

As for that one particular person, I appreciate your friendship now even though after all those years there was silence and tension. We are matured adults old enough to be married off now, aren't we? We're no longer kiddies screaming after boybands or bitching about other schoolmates. Let's behave the way our age wants us to and as far as I can see, you and me are doing just fine =)

I really miss your friendship gurly, and I'm just thankful you're a friend again after all those years of absence. Afterall, you're one of the funniest people on Earth, like seriously ;)

I HAVE INVITES TO WATCH POPTART AT HOME CLUB TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm listening to Taking Back Sunday and Thrice (don't you just lurvee them??) and...

I feel so empty and depressed... you're not what you used to be baby.

And why is that so?

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That's us Crescentians yesterday sending Azmia off to Aussie land. hehe... Check out Yan's pose in the sitting-down picture. Bwarhahahaha!! She is soooo funny! She said it's like primary school photo taking, hence the weird pose. Hahaha. I cannot tahan whenever I look at her photos... so cacat and cute la!

It's fun being around the gurlies... I realize I need their company from now on to keep me rooted to the ground. These friends are the sane friends who will lead me to a better future. They're not the type to influence me to do shite to only ruin my future. I love them lar. I really do. They've just yet to know. Heh.

xMUACKMUACKMUACKx



My gorgeous new phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nokia 6111.

=)

(isn't my nail polish colour so pwetty? Tee hee heee)


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Went to Changi airport to send Azmia off.
Then I went to town to meet the boyfriend.
Then we went to East Coast to have late dinner with his friends.
Then headed to Changi to chill abit with other firneds.
Then headed to Zouk.

Hahaha. Busy busy day, yesterday was.

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Happy anniversary baby =)

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I just think you should know that when you don't shower me with enough love and affections, I'll just go and look for it somewhere else because there's many others out there willing to give me what I want.

You used to be just 1% away from perfection.

But now you're 50% away from it and you've turned into a cold fish.

What happened along the way?

I'm a good gurlfriend to you, aren't I?

I don't go out or contact boys anymore even though I've got tonnes of them boy friends and you know that.
I don't go to DblO and Momo anymore just because you don't want to. (It's not that I like RnB, I don't. I prefer house but RnB's easier and fun-ner to dance to. You'll know what I mean if you've been to Momo and DblO before...)
I report to you my every move and I go out only with my galpals once in a blue moon.
I bring you food and I bake specially for you.
I make you cards and I write you sweet letters and poetry.
I pay for everything I can when I have the cash.
I never make you pay for my club entries before.
I don't ask you for exorbitantly priced gifts unlike someone.
I tell you save your money when you insist on buying me gifts because I love you and I care for you, I don't want you to waste money unnecessarily.
I always give you what you want and make you a happy man.
I don't party unless you're around.
I let you check my hp and every sms I receive and send out.
I tolerate it when our plans are ruined just because you want us to hang out with your friends every weekend.
I make an effort socialize and be liked by your friends and their wives/gurlfriends.
I tolerate it when you can't make it to join my friends and I when we chil out.
I tolerate your excessively ridiculous punctuality problem even though it tears me apart because it says so much about you. (For example, I don't mean much to you that you can come 2hrs late to meet me).

I hate sounding pathetic but I don't like it when I know I can be treated better by others but you. You're lucky enough to have me, and you're taking me for granted.

Never ever take me for granted because you know what happened to the ex'es right?

They became ex'es.

I'm a smart gurl who knows what's best for herself.
Just in case you don't know, I'm selfish too.
If you don't live up to it, I'll just find someone better.

There's so many out there, you know that?

Gurls like me will never be single for long so just to remind you, you'd better brush up the act before I turn away.

(Note: So what if I sound like an arrogant conceited bitch. He's taking me for granted and what do you readers know about what we're going thru after only 2 months of relationship. Judge me if you will. Not that I care. You're not the one providing for me right? Then I don't care about what you think of me.)

FRIDAY 10 FEBRUARY 2006

Am not at work today coz of the gastric pangs... Urgh. Pain pain pain!

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I really don't give a FLYING FUCK about what you think about me or what you think is best for me coz seriously darling, you can shove your opinions up your tight pussy for all I care coz I no longer consider you a friend. AND your opinions mean dirtshit to me. So there.

I really wish with all my heart and soul that you'll just lavish some other gurl with you love, care and riches. I seriously tak heran (not hard up for) your money okay.

I don't care if you could've bought me or do for me the following :
1) Miss Sixty ring
2) Miss Sixty dress
3) Diesel belt
4) Diesel top
5) Guess tanktop
6) A|X top
7) meals at Boat Quay's french and italian restaurants which you KNOW i can't resist
8) meals at that seafood place you've been promising me coz I love the oysters there
9) meals at Spageddies, Coffee Club, Marche, Bakerzin, Sushi Tei and Hyatt Hotel coz that's where we usually eat.
10) Send me to and fro when I have to go out or go to work or go to clubs.
11) Open bottles for me at clubs.

And many many more lah.

I'm no longer the materialistic beeeeeeyotch I was yeah.
I really don't care because love isn't about money and convenience. Love is about being happy with that certain someone, being proud of him even though he has nothing and being able to communicate at all times yet be comfortable in silence.

I know you can provide me with the things I love in life that all of them men exes combined together can't provide. But unfortunately, I don't love you. So you can take your money elsewhere, thank you.

I just don't love you and I don't want you to be part of my life; is that so hard to understand? No break up is easy; most break ups aren't mutual. It's usually someone dumps the other. And since I've dumped you; meaning I don't love you anymore, I'd appreciate it if you'd get over it and shower some other lucky gurl with what you've got.

You're seriously driving me insane with your messages and your threats ok. It's fucking irritating when you keep messaging me once every 10-15minutes, like seriously. I'll be working, or trying to sleep, or out with my boyfriend or friends and my fucking phone just keeps vibrating! It makes my battery lower and it's tiring to keep checking my hp man. Just stop it before I get a restraining order from the police or something! It's nearly been a year since the break up and you're still behaving like a stalker. I can only take so much...

Fuck off already.

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I remember this night 2 months ago before heading to HRC with the gurls. I saw him with her at Coffee Bean at 12.30am even though he was supposed to meet me at 12am. In the end he fetched me at 4am.

The funny part was that I wasn't furious about the fact that he was with her.
I was more furious with the fact that he was 4 hours late and he couldn't enjoy the party with me! Hahaha. I'm seriously going insane with his punctuality problem lar... He's forever more than 1.5 hours late. It's so exasperating that I always end up bursting into tears while waiting for him at my block's porch! It's extremely frustrating ya know when he messages you that he's already on the bike but he only reaches an hour later...

It makes me wonder what the hell he's up to that he's so late everytime...

Is he meeting another chick before he meets me?
Is he meeting some unapproved (by me!) friends behind my back?
Is he sleeping at home but he tells me he's on the way?
Is he at home yakking on the phone with a gurl?
IS HE TALKING/MEETING/SCREWING/RENDEZVOUS-ING

Aaaargh! These thoughts drive me nuts and these thoughts are in my head EVERYDAY!! Boooo yaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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I got me my new hp =) hehehe...

Aiya since I couldn't get my samsung E730 coz it's been out of stock for AGES and I need a new hp urgently coz the old one died on me with pregnant batteries and all, I settled for a Nokia 6111. Which is petite, cute and sleek. hehe... it slides! And it's white! So pwetty! I'm a happy happy gurly =)

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Traveling to work is sucha bitch. Argh.

It takes me 8mins to walk to the MRT.
5mins for the wait of the MRT arrival.
20mins for the MRT ride.
Wait for bus 10mins. (Service 100 is fucking irritating. Sometimes you can't even get on the pathetic bus and have to wait for ANOTHER one!)
Bus ride 15mins.
Walk to the office 15-20mins. Depending on how bad my blisters are.

That's approximately 73mins to 78mins worth of travelling. Plus, I have to wake up at 6.30am in the morning since I start work at 8.30am. Which explains why I'm late every single goddamn day. Actually this place is pretty near my house, but it's so mafan to get here coz I have to change la, walk la, wait la. Wah lao the time spent on the road is better off spent sleeping right???

I wanna quit this job simply because of the travelling but I can't...

why?

Because I just can't.

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That was yesterday night in town.. the whole Chinggay Parade preview thing was going on. Ah dammit man... I took 106 to town to meet Netty but the bloody bus couldn't go thru the normal route coz of the parade so I ended up stopping somewhere behind behind BEHIND Tanglin Mall and spent like 25 minutes walking to Wheelock Place!!! Argh! Fucking annoying man... somemore it was damn dark and I was walking alone...

So anyhoos, was supposed to go to Zouk but the boyfriend was like LATE. ARGH. Met the Stallion boys for karaoke at PartyWorld instead then we slacked at the kopitiam til 5 in the morning... I was damn pissed lar. I don't care man, next week onwards, if he's late, I'll just go to Zouk or MoS on my own. Afterall, I'm sure I've got friends who are there as well...

There's always Kejin or Tara or Ivan or Alex or Ridz or Ayu or Lisa or Maureen or Lyna or Fala or or or... THERE'S ALWAYS SOME FRIEND AT THE CLUB LA OKAY???? Grrr... I hate it when I've dressed up; all hyped to party to awesome house music and then my hopes gets THWARTED just because a certain somebody was ridiculously late. I mean, it happens ALL the time man!!! It's really getting on my nerves... Grrr...

Wooo weee the net and PC at home's working again like FINALLY =)

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Check out what my brother and I did the entire Saturday afternoon. Hahaha. The poor boy's platoon was caught smoking so they had to write this apology thingy like FIVE HUNDRED TIMES. He wrote like up to 300 yet he was calm. I wrote up to 20 and I was practically bawling my eyes out. Coz my tangan so sakit :~( But nevermind because baby will help me massage later when I meet him. Heeee!

So okay it was a CRAZY weekend!

Friday - Zouk
Saturday - HRC
Sunday - Mahligai Manis (Eeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Hahaha)
Monday - MoS

It was insane man... plus I was so sick, down with fever, flu and what-not...

Friday's Zouk was brief coz we decided to chill out later instead...

Saturday we met up with his friends in town and they decided that HRC's the way to go coz all of us could get in free even though I HATE THAT GODDAMN PLACE!! IT'S MAT N MINAHS INFESTED MAN!!!! But it's okay coz all's free anyways. Haha. After HRC, had supper at Spize... the boyfriend was in a bad mood. Sucks.

Sunday was lame shit. Met up with the boyfriend, thinking we'd be spending some nice quality time together on a nice Sunday evening but he brought me to some colleague's house for some bike design initiation shit and there's like THIRTY MEN in the house man!! I had to sit in the room with their wives for like 3hours!! I think President's meeting also lose out to these fellas... Hai. Had supper then off we went to Mahligai Manis for a supposed night of fun and laughter. I was tricked! The 40 or so of us were sitting at Mahligai with sullen faces coz seriously, it's not nice to watch people fit for an old folks' home dancing to screeching dangdut songs. Urgh. Gross.

But the whole intiation, supper n having fun thingy with them bikers was an eye opener coz there's like 30 bikes on the road and we were like vroom vroom vrooming away and I've just never experienced this before, ya know? Cool lah... I hope they're not the fighting kinda gang. Like them Alip fools. Or the Vamps. or Ghosbusters. Or what shit la okay!! Just don't smash my face or my boyfriend's face can already!! =)

So. While the rest of the gang was at MoS on Sunday night, we were at a sleazy dangdut club off Serangoon Road. Nevermind.

Because we went to MoS on Monday =) Got invites and decided to watch Koflow instad of PvD coz Zouk was super packed. Funny thing was, yesterday we were hanging out at Lido Mac, Koflow was sitting next to me coz apparently the boyfriend knows Koflow!! They used to skate together back in school!!! How cool is that??? I was soooo gonna blurt out that i went to MoS specially to watch him spin but I held back my tongue coz it's not so cool to say such things to cool spin meisters, ya know? Hehehe...

Okay I guess cool is the word of the day huh? Cool. Heeeeeeee

So so SOOOOOOOO I went to Sentosa to tan in the day and it was fucking infested with perverted banglas!!! I have NOTHING against Indians because I am one myself but these fellas I tell you! They were splashing and rolling around beautiful Sentosa in their super torn underwears that looked like bloody cheapskate g-strings lah!! And and and you know what? While Hab and I were having a smoke, too engrossed in our smarty pants conversation about some expressionism Claud Monet and dunno-who shit, this one brazen fella stood next to me and the next thing I knew, his friend was flashing away! He's taking pictures with me without even asking me!!! AAAARGH! It was traumatising I tell ya. We stayed at Sentosa for like only an hour and a half, then we decided ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

Had our late lunch at Delifrance and they've got the WORST service ever man. For that kinda pricing, it's ridiculous la the way they run the bloody place. The menu right, lets say got around 20 food items. But only 5 or so were available. Like fuck man! Somemore the waiters were so rude!! I soooo wrote a nasty complain email to the management the minute I got home sia. I'm STILL waiting for a reply AND a form of compensation!

so there!

I mean, when I asked the idiot why isn't ANY of the salads available, he was like 'Eer the leaf arh, no haf oredi arh.' (what he meant was there wasn't any salad available) Grrrrr... and when I asked why isn't the pastas available, he told me 'eat chicken arh. Nice nice one.' THAT DOESN'T ANSWER MY QUESTION YOU FOOL. *breathes in, breathes out* So okay, I ordered a chickeny dish but the fool told me NONE were available! Only 1 steak and 1 weird fishy thingy was available. AAARGH!! I WAS ON THE BRINK OF PULLING MY HAIR OUT AND BURSTING INTO TEARS OUT OF EXASPERATION!!!!

I hope Harbourfront Delifrance will shut down soon so that they will avoid further humiliation.

So I was totally sick at MoS. Saw many many guy friends but the boyfriend wasn't happy at all ;) Hehehe...

I don't know man. I keep telling myself to stop this partying nonsense coz it's taking a serious toll on my health but I can't help it =( Every week when Wednesday comes, I'll start getting itchy itchy to dance and thirsty thirsty to drink. Argh.

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This job sucks. I know nuts man. I feel like crying.

But i can't quit coz I've got bills to pay. Bummer.