HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

May you have a great life ahead of ya and be a success in love, career and health!

Okay tonight at Zouk I shall pretend to be drunk and kiss ya when nobody's looking yea? Wahahaha. Just scaring you only!!!!!!!!! Hehehe.

Had such a huge fight with him yesterday... I'm not going to give you a blow by blow account of what happened coz I have to respect his privacy too. So here's the gist of it.

We went to Newton to eat and ended up fighting coz well, I was being sensitive and he was being vulgar. I took a cab home but he met me at my place to return me my stuff.

I said sorry coz I hate fighting, even though it wasn't my fault. But he went on and on about what would I feel if this and that happens. I got pissing mad, I yelled vulgarities and he was so bloody shocked coz I've never been so mad like that before. I don't use profanities ya know. The most I'll say is fuck. I don't say cb, knn, buto*, sia* and stuff like that. I threw a water bottle I picked up on the floor at him and stormed off...

Hailed a cab and tipped him a good 10 bucks. Because I just wanted to do something nice for somebody badly. Lucky s.o.a.b cabby! Headed to the kopitiam nearby and ordered a huge Barons, Redbull and PallMall Menthol Lights. Auntie said 'Ger arh, uncle all drink Tiger lei. U no wan Tiger meh?' I said 'Nevermind Aunty, you don't have Heineken right? So give me Barons.' Then Aunty proceeded to give me all sorts of fags except for the one I wanted, which is PALLMALLMENTHOL LIGHTS. She helped me to carry my stuff to my table and told me to take care and she patted my head. I felt so loved in that few seconds, really.

As I sat there alone; fighting back tears and swallowing as much beer as fast as I could, I thought of leaving him and all the things I could say to explain my leaving. But I just couldn't you see. I just couldn't do it because I love him and we went through so much to be together. I don't want to waste all of our time and efforts!

Everyone who walked past me either stared at me weirdly or gave me sympathetic smiles. I mean, who wouldn't? A young gurl sits at a kopitiam alone; surrounded by crinkled apeks with Tigers, smoking and drinking a huge bottle of Barons and Redbull. Red eyes and staring blankly at the TV didn't help either. Aunty was sweet enough to keep an eye on me coz a whole lot of apeks sure were keeping an eye on me too!

He eventually found me at the kopitiam an hour later and took me home. I puked like a river at the porch, so he sure as hell wasn't happy with me. He still isn't.

Went home and called Boy to talk. He's a funny fella la... we always giggle alot for like a good 30seconds then tease each other.

So today I get to go home early coz there's excess manpower. I somehow wish I don't have to go home. I don't feel like partying either and I sure do not want to see his face. I wish I can go to somebody else's home to chill and talk. Coz i sure need to do that... too bad the people whom I wanna meet and talk are either busy schooling, working or in camp... sigh...

These are the POPTART videos from HOME @ 250306 =) Sorry if the sound sucks, was using the handphone and you know la... when the music's too loud, it sounds distorted. Don't bother watching the video, it's very dark and you'll get dizzy coz Epain was moving it around too much. Haha. Just listen to the songs...



I love this song. Epain thinks it sounds like a songkar (cheena mampos) song and my Mom thinks it sounds like a soccer song but NO OKAY!!! It's by Arcade Fire and I think they kick major ass... It's their signature song and whenever they play it, everyone would get delirious and wave their arms and sway. It's like bloody united man... like some kinda soccer game. Wahahaha. Only thing missing is a human wave. hehe.



Okay Adrian says this video, the song sounds like grindcore. Wahahahaha. Its actually a very nice song la... too bad you guys can't really hear it.

This is saturday's crazy state of drunkenness that we were in.

Tara and Anthony joined us for a teeny weeny lil bit, then they left :( so Baby and I crossed over to the kopitiam to have beer. After 3 bottles of Barons and Redbull, this is what happened to us. Hahaha. Damn pussified la coz we haven't drank in sucha long time! So now we drink, we start puking and sleeping and whining and peeing and dancing like mad and tease each other. So fun to be with my baby :)



Pic1 : We went to Newton to have cockles, stingray, chicken wings, kailan, oulwak and sugar cane with lemon =) the 2 of us ate until we were pale. hehe
Pic2 : B and his bike
Pic3 : At the open space behind MoS where they flew pretty coloured kites with lights!
Pic4 : Boy and the gorgeous Scrambler I mentioned aforehand



Pic1 : Stoned and asleep outside the club
Pic2 : Random pic to fill up the photo collage. hahaha.
Pic3 : My puke on the floor which you guys cannot see (thank god for that huh? haha) and my cute half shoes!
Pic4 : My favouritest shoe that B owns. The Pro Keds shoe. Style.



Pic1 : I love this shot of B and I. My head fits into his neck so perfectly =)
Pic2 : He got his hair cut and he looks so much fresher, younger and skinnier! So different laa! Haha.
Pic3 : Me being the vainpot that I am couldn't resist a solo peekchure.
Pic4 : yes yes we are very much in love even though I have buck teeth and he has small eyes.



Pic1 - Pic3 : In HOME with POPTART, adrian loved my ciggs. hehe. (who wouldn't????) and check that out! They even body surfed! Heh. Dance like mad until my longkang was filled with sweat. Hmmm.
Pic4 - Pic6 : Drunkenness over but silliness crept in. So we amused ourselves coz Tara and Anthony weren't around to entertain us anymore. Haha.



Pic1: B looks so handsome (to me anyways. haha)
Pic2: Okok la I'm a copycat. hehe. check out my favouritest Armani Xchange top that costed $149 after 50% off!!!! Hahaha. Yesh yesh I love it la... it's a good buy and it makes my tan and shoulders look nicer than it actually is. haha.
Pic3: I'm forever sleeping and he's awake.
Pic4 : I'm awake and he's nearly gone. Haha.

On the love front, all's well.

As for the family and home issues, it's pretty bad... sigh. I can't wait to move out. But the biggest quetsion now is where?

Dad cut up all my miniskirts and a few thongs right in my face. I was trembling mad... That isn't the end of it daddy-o. I'm just going to go out and buy MORE brand new miniskirts. I'm 21. I know what I did was wrong and I know I'm a terrible Muslim kid but there's no reason for you people to treat me like a criminal! Why do you still hit me and throw things at me? Hey I party and drink, but I don't fuck around and get tattoos right??? I know my limits la! And then you start imposing on me rules that I thought will never see the daylight of again?? Wtf... you people can go fly kite la if you think I'm going to listen to your ridiculous rules.

Club HOME yesterday night was awesome. As always, your truly will update photos and videos tomorrow coz I'm too sleepy to do it now... hehe.

Night.

I was chatting with my colleague the other day. Check out what nonsense we got up to. Wahahaha. I censored his name coz I don't want him to get into trouble for yakking away with me when he's actually got tonnes of work to finish up. hehe. So funny. I love MSN =)

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I wish I can type something in here that's been bugging my boggling mind but I shall not for fear you guys will accuse me of being a racist. Blah.

It's just that I've had enough of this issue and I wish I can voice it out without getting judged by my own friends. If I say something offensive, just remember, it's nothing against you; my loved ones. It's just something against the rest of the world whom I can't give a shit about okay?

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Can't wait for POPTART tonight :)

I will drink Barons and redbull like there's no tomorrow and sway to Placebo, Chemical Brothers and The Postal Service. I've had enough of everything.

Weee.

Just had a huge tiff with him just 'cause I wanna meet Aza and Satria later before heading to Zouk with him... It's not fair la. I cannot abandon my male friends just because he gets mad when I see them! And then he'll seek revenge by doing the same back to me. Hey, I don't mind if you meet gurls because you need to but don't meet gurls or party without me just to spite me!

For the past few months, he's never keen on partying. Every single weekend he'll trick me just so we wouldn't party... one of the reasons as to why I chose him over Atan was because he's willing to party with me. And he gives me my freedom to party and meet friends. If he doesn't, then I might as well have stuck to Atan right??

Now he's just as bad as Atan... if not worse!

I don't know la... I hate fighting with him on a weekend.
Weekends are when we have fun.
Weekends are when the events start rolling in and we come home the next morning with smudgy make-up and bad breath.
Weekends are when we let loose and waste all of our money.
Weekends are when we don't think about how much work sucks.
Weekends are when we are at our most loved and happiest.

Even though this weekend is pretty jam-packed; considering tomorrow's outing with Aidah and Yan, and POPTART later at night and Sunday's Sentosa, I'm pretty unhappy... how can I be smiling when the luv is mad at me?

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I am mentally exhausted. I am disgustingly sick of work and I wish I can bomb the entire ** population. (I cannot reveal where I work at for fear of being sued. Especially after saying I have intentions of bombing the whole bloody population!) All 16 buildings of them in sunny Singapore. I cannot bear to go to work because the thought of it makes me nauseus and I might just go insane and have a bitchfit at the office. Really.

(I know some colleagues are reading this so please shut your goddamn trap and not tell anyone what I just typed or else a hunky policeman's gonna ship me off to the women's prison soon! I really wouldn't mind a hunky policeman touching me but I really mind if I have to go to jail!)

Therefore I am at home, still miserable thanks to the luv (sarcasm here!). Mommy tried cheering me up by cooking me a huge bowl of slice fish soup noodles with milk =) My favourite!! (Oh, I also love Hokkien mee, ban mian, mee poh dry and basically most chinese foods that aren't spicy!). My belly's bursting at its seams coz the bowl was like HUGE la! HAHAHA. Mom's so cute...

It's amazing how office politics can blow things out of proportion, even if it could have been settled quietly on a good note.

Strange people I work with.

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I regret with all my heart and soul of the decision I've made. I should've listened to Sri from the start, then none of this would have happened... I'm so perplexed beyond belief and it's so unfair to know that what I think might be the answer to my eternal happiness, I cannot have!

Why oh why am I always so unlucky in love...?

More times than I can recall, I long to be single again...

I want my liberty and independence back, ya know? I want to be able to meet up with my guy pals... go to gigs and jamming... party with my gurlies... not worry or get paranoid all the time...

When I fell for him, he was cool.

Now he's uptight and controlling.

There's no way in hell I can ever leave him (unless he leaves me) after all we've been through. Besides, I don't even have the heart to.

When I'm in love I give my heart and soul. I might have been with you for let's say, only 6 months but I bet you felt at your most loved in that 6 months (coz they told me that's the way they felt!).

I wonder if he loves me as much as I do. I adore him like mad, but does he feel the same way? Maybe I should fade away for some time and see if he finds me or not... Then I'll know for sure...

Right?

You know what?

I've got 5 bloody invites to POPTART at club HOME this Saturday.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I love Adrian la. He's a gem. I'd better buy him ciggies for saturday man. Show some luv ya know? ;)

Okie I've made up my mind on who to go with me and it's not you!!!

Okok stop being mean... hehe.

Go to HOME on Saturday and stop being a loser people. It's a bloody saturday night, time to let down your hair!

*chicken dances all around the office. really.*

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STOP READING ABOUT MY LIFE.

I HATE YOU AND YOU'RE THE PAST. MOVE ON LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE DID AND STAY OUT OF MY LIFE OKAY! YOU DRIVE ME INSANE, DO YOU KNOW THAT?? YOU PUSH ME TO THE EDGE, MAKING ME CRY, CUT AND SWALLOW AND WHY? BECAUSE YOU REFUSE TO GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!

ONE DAY WHEN MY LOVED ONES HOUND YOU AND GET YOU, DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU.

LISTEN TO YOURSELF LA. HOW PATHETIC CAN YOU GET? I'M NOT THE ONLY GURL IN SINGAPORE YOU ARE CAPABLE OF LOVING OKAY. I'M SURE IF YOU ALLOW YOURSELF TO GET OVER ME, YOU CAN OPEN UP YOUR HEART TO ANOTHER GURL (OR BOY PREFERABLY).

PLEASE LA.
PLEASE STOP MAKING MY LIFE MISERABLE.
PLEASE STOP STALKING ME.
PLEASE STOP MESSAGING ME 20 TIMES A DAY.
PLEASE STOP THREATENING ME.
PLEASE STOP TALKING TO MY FRIENDS.
PLEASE STOP BUGGING MY BOYFRIEND.
PLEASE STOP READING MY BLOG.

PLEASE JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I stole this from somebody's friendster. hehehe.

Remember a few weeks back I went bowling and hang out at Ambrosia with the Cedarians? Yea well these are them, the lovely gurlies =)

L to R : Fiza (I saw her on Sunday!), Niea, Faz (Hot mama, literally!), Ika, Sam, Izwah, Yours Truly (I curled my hair for like 2hrs but it turned out like fucking crap. As all of you can see, yes?)

I wanna meet them soon =(

I do not understand those who love to vent out their anger on somebody else simply because they are unhappy with a totally different person.

Didn't your Momma teach you to be nice and not be mean to others who don't deserve it?

Tsk tsk tsk... victimising is one thing. To know perfectly well that what you're doing is wrong and not being sorry about it is another. It just speaks volumes about your character ya know? That you're just downright nasty and cruel. I betcha proud of that, aren't you?

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I hope you know how much I hate you. You were a lucky idiot to have even gotten me in the first place and now you want to act all rude and stranger-ish?? We are ex-es for God's sakes! Can't you just be civil about it instead of letting your ego run loose??

Hey if not for the fact that I was on a rebound, you would've never have gotten anywhere near my heart la. Remember what I told you? That I hated your guts for the 1st few months that I knew you? Yea well it changed halfway, didn't it? And only because I was on a rebound. Ha.

I hate the way you treat me now. Don't blame me for everything when you neglected me in the first place. If you didn't prioritize everything else (i.e. friends, work, bike, family) but me, things wouldn't have turned out this way.

Grow up, stop being sour and stop listening to those people you call friends. If they are your true friends, they wouldn't force your mindset to change. Plus, you ought to have a backbone.

Grrr.

Check out GSC!! They are goooood! (Unfortunately the sound and picture quality sucks. haha.)

The crowd was great man, they sang, skanked, body-surfed and cheered. The band was cool too coz they interacted with the audience, so the audience were very responsive. Nice la. Really.

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That's baby and I at changi last weekened. (Baby's got a nice ass. Nicer than mine so I couldn't resist taking a photo of it while he was sleeping. hehe)



And that's the rest of the crap we did coz playing around with the moon seemed like fun. Haha.

Super awesome Gerhana Ska Cinta (GSC) at esplanade just now. They rock man!

(Once again, sorry for the blurry photos. My handphone cam sucks.)

We rushed all the way down from Bishan to catch USV but by the time we reached, their set was over because of the slight drizzle. They only played 3 songs! Isn't that sad??? So anyways, met the crazy boys of KOK and USV for a chat then we checked out GSC. Saw many many people I haven't seen in ages and the crowd was just great la :) The skins were like skanking and everybody else were singing along. Even Ang mohs and kids were dancing! Power man.

So cool that Thur nite, Adrian was spinning and now Sunday night USV's playing. This Mosaic Music Festival is such a fabulous platform for local music, just like Baybeats =)

(Apparently the ex-es were around; Des and Atan. but I didn't see them. phew!)

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Pic1: Isn't it so postcard-ish?? Ipin looks to the left, Opium looks to the right. Haha
Pic2: Naughty Opium! See-no-touch cat.
Pic3: Happy people after watching GSC.
Pic4: Crazy baby who's obssessed with the skiing game in his mobile.

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Kavita's damn hilarious.

you wouldnt want to spend time with a girl who thinks her french is better than yours when half the time you dont understand what she's saying, and who seems to be unaware a rat died in her mouth.

wahahahaha. I miss you la babe :(

By the way, I HATE YOU COZ YOU GET TO BE IN BLOODY FRANCE AND I'M STUCK HERE IN SINGAPORE!!! I WANNA BE A LINGUISTICS STUDENT TOO!!! I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY ABOUT THE STUDENT PROTESTS AND RACISM STUFF COZ I WANNA BE IN FRANCE TOO!!!!!! Boo hoo hoo =(

Okie I luv ya!

Haha. Cam-whoring again.
Pic1 : We luv our phones!! (Well, he does anyways.)
Pic2 : This is what we belong to.

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Okay we didn't go to MoS coz the darling came so late... and because Sri asked us to go to Momo instead, so we ended up at Momo on a Saturday night. Which made me furious with the luv by the way, coz first I didn't get to go to Zouk on Friday because he wanted to chill with his friend (which I didn't mind at all since it's Boy). Now, we don't get to go to MoS because he came so late. I mean, I need my dosage of house music, don't you understand?????

Grrr... plus, Momo was so freaking boring on a Saturday... prolly because there wasn't any free flow for us. Wahahaha. (Eh, people bankrupt la!).

But we did managed to get 2 glasses of free beer coz the gay bartender took a liking to baby. Er. Yeah. I don't know why gays always adore him. Everywhere we go, Zouk, MoS, Momo, Rouge, indochine. Gays always talk to him or dance with him! Ang mohs, malays, chinese, indians, you name it! Why why why???? My baby prefers pussies to dicks okay!!!

Okay anyhoos, out of context there. Tee hee. So yeah Momo was boring, baby was throwing a tantrum coz he wanted to chill with Boy at Cuscaden but somehow felt obligated to follow me to Momo instead coz he prolly couldn't bear leaving me at a club alone without him. Haha.

Tara had invites to a Heineken party at Harbourfront's Helipad. How awesome is that??? Plus I love Heinies the besties!! Wished I could go too... sigh... but I was stuck at Momo and it was already 2am, so no point meeting Tara there right. Gurl, we must party together sometime k!!! (Plus my boyfriend too la if you don't mind. haha.)

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Ya know, my house is like a hotel for me. I'm only home to eat, sleep, bathe or check my mail. Really. I'm never home to just sit and watch TV or just chilling. Other than that I'm either working, partying, or out with friends or boyfriend. No wonder my parents are so mad at me. Ha.

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Yesterday we met Boy to have supper at Spize. And well eer... alot of strange stuff happened.

The tattooed apek who's at every hot club in town suddenly came up to me and yelled for a cigarette. (Ya know, the siao siao one who doesn't seem to know how to speak? I actually think he's quite a cool and cute old apek! And I feel sorry for him =( )
The boys couldn't stop staring at a baby rat along Spize which I think is cute.
Boy's burger had 3 fucking patties and like 1kg of fries *gasp*.
We couldn't decide on where to go to chillout and ended up talking for almost an hour at our bikes.
First time I saw Boy riding a bike, let alone a Scrambler. Hotttttt!!!!

That us celebrating Kin's birthday outside DblO yesterday night. It was so fucking hilarious laa! Hahaha. We didn't go in DblO even though they did coz well ya know, I'd rather enjoy Poptart at Esplanade then to party to RnB at DblO! You guys can click on the photos for a clearer view!

(Sorry if the photos are blurry or jjust plain bad. I'm not a good photographer. 'Nuff said.)

Argh Poptart was bloody fucking awesome yesterday night at Esplanade!!!!!!!!!!!!

The crowd was pretty swell too even though there was prolly like 200 people? I've got some videos of them but the sound sucks, so lemme try to find a host and upload it if I can yea? I was on the brink of tears man coz I love the music so much!! There was like Smashing Pumpkins, Groove Armada, Placebo and all the usual core music for Poptart... wicked!! Can't wait for their Saturday's party!!

That's Adrian. He kicks-ass man. Good shite!!

I didn't put up the other DJs photos coz they aren't my friends and I don't really like what they spin. Bwarhahahaha. Bloody biased right. Oh well. Grin.

PS : Adrian, having said that about you, can you please put me on your guest list for Saturday's party pretty please? Hahahahahahahahaha

Moi being in a foul mood and all at work, decided to take photos to cheer myself up coz afterall I'm Queen Camwhore right? Hehe...

Pic1: Nice smiley shot.
Pic2: I wanted to eat the mouse coz I am starved.
Pic3: I wanted to beat up the PC coz it's making my eyesight deteriorate.
Pic4: Baby telling me he loves me on the phone but I'm still sad coz I want bigger boobs =( (Okay what has it got to do with Baby telling me he loves me right? Nvm. I was just thinking about bigger boobs all of a sudden so don't ask.)

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I know I'm not supposed to say this now coz I'm no longer a lesbian but I'm in love with Shane from the L Word. She's the most fucking gorgeous dyke ever!! Better than Ellen, Portia and Rosie combined together man!! Argh! I've always been besotted by her for the past 2 years but I just cannot hold it in anymore. I've been dreaming of her even!!!

So yeah. The word is out.

Rahmah's in love with Shane for 2 years and now she cannot keep it in any longer.

I feel so much better after letting that out =)

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Am sucha bum these days.

Didnt't bother wearing any make up to work since last Thursday coz argh! I'd rather sleep than to spend the 20minutes I usually take to put on make up in the mornings man. But I look like crap. I'm all pale and haggard-ish. I even have colleagues telling me I look older without make up. Wtf. Natural beauty la okay???? Hehe... so bitter!

So anyhoos, suddenly found Hamzah online all over again after so many donkey years. And all I can say is it's nice =)

Had dinner with Habibi at Sakae Sushi just now. It was fun la... no matter how much I always say I hate her, I just gotta give it to her for being so kind and patient to me after all these years...

Was wearing my one and only Esprit top (coz I usually hate all things Esprit!) that I bought more than a year ago. Can you believe that I bought it, never got around to wearing it and only wore it today, which is more than a year later?? Hahaha. I can hear all the men going 'WOMEN. TSK TSK TSK.' What can I say? ;)

Sorry Aidah!! Hab treated me... that's why I went with her... nevermind, next week can go together k? Hehehe... when I have the money. Haaaaaaaaaa

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I'm so bored at home man.

got net, dunno what to do.
got cable tv, dunno what to watch.
got music, dunno what to listen to.
got freedom, dunno where to go.

I'm such a spoilt brat. Tee hee hee!

I love this song. It so friggin' describes my luv and I. Every single part of the song was written and sung for us, for the things he does and the things we do and for the things we feel :)
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Always when we fight,
I try to make you laugh
Until everything's forgotten,
I know you hate that...

Always when we fight,
I kiss you once or twice
And everything's forgotten,
I know you hate that...

I love you Sunday sun,
The week's not yet begun
And everything is quiet and it's always

You and me, always,
And forever
You and me, always,
And forever
It was always, you and me, always...

You tell me I'm a real man,
I tried to look impressed
Not very convincing
But you know I love it...

Then we watch TV,
Until we fall asleep
Not very exciting,
But it's you and...

Me and will always, be together
You and me, always, and forever
It was always, you and me,
Always, and forever
You and me, always,
And forever...
Ba ba ba ba ba
It was always, you and me,
Always, and forever...

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I typed a super long entry and then it all got deleted coz as I've said a milion times before, my home PC suckass.

To cut a long story short, baby brought me to some ulu Changi place. I had to walk past 50 pairs of leering Thai eyes (I was dressed for a club, not fishing), walk thru plants as high as my tits, cross a bridge with gaping planks at 2am with no railings at the sides just to reach the place where his stoopid friends pitched the tent.

It was a fucking jungle I tell ya. A bloody muthafucking pitch darkness Thai infested stray dogs yelping in the middle of nowhere creepy jungle.

But when I reached the location, it was gorgeous being under the stars at night. We faced the open sea, listened to music and talked crap. There were no screeching children, irritating families or disgusting lovers necking, unlike East Coast or Changi Village.

But there were like tonens of Thais and hookers tho.

So basically I was scared out of my wits on saturday night.

Of flying pontianaks.
Of snakes in the bushes.
Of Thais capable of rape (since there was only the 4 of us and like 50 of them!)
Of police who'll come to raid the Thais but also catch me with illegal fags at the same time.

Told baby I'll never forgive him for bringing me to a place that's so ulu that we got lost for an hour and a half tryig to find the spot.

But I forgive him now for letting me experience such a gorgeous sight and breath taking ambience, sitting there at the water breaker, watching his friend fish, watching the stars, lying down on the rocks hand-in-hand and being just so perfectly in love =)

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Argh I'm so so mad at the boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shall update details later. Now I have to rush to town to help him send his Walkman phone for repair. Grrr...

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Yesterday night's outing with Aidah in town was so hilarious! (Since when an outing with her wasn't hilarious? Hehe.? And she bought yetanother shoe after getting one last week!! Hahaha. How can we forget your favourite uncle batam stalking you, yes yes? Even while you were trying on your shoe! Hahaha. Met Surya for a bit later and it's so nice man... she's so cute and funny just like Aidah too!! Cheerios!

Argh I'm so sick that I can't party this weekend.

Of course I'd love to but the boyfriend wouldn't allow it and anyways I think I'd prolly die if I were to party considering the state I'm in... hehe.

Work's good n better so far. It's great to have an understanding boss and awesome colleagues. A week ago I would've killed for another job, just as long as I don't have to stay here. But now I realised I'm lucky that this is the best environment I've been in so far.

What with my lateness, weekly MCs and leaves (yes, WEEKLY.) and constant smoke breaks, it's a miracle these fellas have not fired me. Instead they are being totally accomodating and understanding =) I'm such a blessed chicka!

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The boyfriend's being awfully sugar-coated-to-the-diabetic-range sweet to me of late. I wonder why.

There can only be 2 reasons.

1) He truly loves me.
2) He did something wrong (thus the guilty conscience kicks in).

I wonder which one is it... Hmmm...

Funny aye. Only gurls would think of such things. If a woman showers a man with love, the man would either take it for granted coz he's a pig (he thinks he deserves it anyways!) OR he'll love her even more! Either way, no questions asked. But a woman. VOMAN. She has alot on her mind. All kinds of possible scenarios would be ransacking her brain cells. That's why we are more kanchiong spider and paranoid and sceptical and critical and all things like that lah!

Was so sick. Still am. Didn't go to work from Monday to Wednesday.

Why?

Coz my bloody lungs and blood are infected.

I don't know what the doctor meant by that, but it ain't serious la.

I just gotta stop smoking (which is impossible!!) and cut down on late nights and boozing (which is do-able. hehe)

I feel like crap. Blood's flowing from my throat and nose. Ew. Gross.

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Sometimes I wish it was you whom I spoke to and not him. For the fact that we have more things in common and also you'll be less complicated... Unfortunately damage is done and there's no turning back... Why does this always happen to me?

Stupid PC's at home is infested with god-knows-what viruses so I can't update my blog since Friday. So this entry's a HUGE THANK YOU to dearie Boy who helped me blog :) Tee hee hee

THANK YOU BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Okay get ready for a super long entry that's filled with peeeekchuressss and lotsa luuurve from moi to ya ;)

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It was a great weekend.

I love my baby :)

Friday we were supposed to go to Zouk but Sri was alone and she was being crazily persistent so we ended up at Momo with her friends instead. Check out the pic below. Gawd I look like Miss Piggy!! (i.e. pale and fat)



Baby and I got home at 11.30am on Saturday morning and we were sooo in deep shit with my parents and his workplace la... Hehe. We overslept again la. As always!

Saturday I went to town to meet up with Tity giler and then met the bf to go to MoS... after which we went to Ambrosia to celebrate his friend's birthday. There, I met Ika, Faz, Izwah, Sam, Niea and Fiza who are the most wonderful Cedarians that I can have as newly found friends =) Can't wait to party with them on Wednesday!!

Then we all went bowling at like 12am with them and those gurls are sooo fucking cute and hilarious la! Ya know, typical gurls school attitude just like you and me but 10 times more pretty and kecoh ;) hehe. Check out my cute size 4 bowling shoes. hehehe. I soooo wanted the blue and red version but since my feet is too small, I had to settle for this white one which looks like tennis shoes instead. Urgh.



After that we went to MoS around 2am to party our asses and legs off. My legs still hurt from the non-stop dancing. Haha.



Sunday was spent zipping aroound Suntec's career fair with the luv, then hanging out and watching the fountain at Suntec. We sang and we smoked and we ate and we laughed. It was nice =) Then off we went to Spize for a very late dinner and again, we chilled there for like 2hrs, just the 2 of us. It's wonderful la that we can hang out the entire day together and still have so much to say and laugh about :)

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Okay random pics time!

Us at HRC a few weeks back with his friends. That's cacat curry boy. hahaha



Pic1 : My favourite foods at CoffeeClub @ Harbourfront
Pic2 : Opium sleeping and looking so adorable =)
Pic3 : The stylo gold toilet bowl at Momo
Pic4 : Club HOME a few weeks back with Ipin.



Random photos taken with the old N6230... ( which is sooo tiny! haha. sorry!)



The 1st pic shows how long baby's hair has grown that he can actually tie it up and pin it up too. Hehe... the other 2 pics are just random pics showing some luuuurve ;)



The 1st 2 pics are taken with baby's new Walkman mobile while the last 2 are taken with my N6111. I never knew that a difference of 0.3megapixels can actually show so much difference in the photo quality man... (Coz his is 1.3MPX, and mine's only 1MPX.)



Pic1 : Netty trying to look like James Dean. Hehe
Pic2 : Netty's super cool baseline-remixed tattoo ;)
Pic3 : My favourite pic of myself taken at sentosa :)
Pic4 : Bored at Tampines kopitiam with Baby's design friends. Tsk. My brains could've melted at the mundane stuff they were talking about man. Bikes, bikes, bikes and MORE bikes!!

Yesterday night was nice =)

Met Aidah, Yan, Wan and Faz in town for Aidah's birthday dinner. Went to Lucky Plaza, then to Coffee Club to have my dosage of salmon fettucini (I always take it with linguini but as I said before, Paragon's CoffeeClub sucks. They didn't have it.). The gurls had all sorts of mudpies and it's just so nice hanging out with them la =) They are so cute and funny and smart... hehehe.

Aidah, we all love you. You made the right decision and I wish you all the best in life, love, career and spirits. Friends Forever k :)

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Had my hair cut this morning... it looks SO much better man. At least I don't look so haggard and my hair doesn't feel so heavy anymore. Hahaha.

Work is seriously causing me misery man. I really can't take the job scope coz I find it extremely difficult to handle. I've had it up to here (hands in a saluting position on my forehead) yet there's nothing I can do about it. Besides, it's hard to get a job, I need to save for school and this job has a great working environment. Plus I love my boss, she's super fucking awesome. Sigh... what a dilemma... what am I to do man...

Will be heading to either Attica or Zouk later after work. See you guys there if you're coming down too :)

Sigh.

Been so busy at work of late... met up with Tity at the void deck yesterday night. She's damn hilarious la...

thank god peeps like mano and Shahril are angels to me at work. I love ma smoking kakis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Mano's damn hemsem! Too bad he's taken. heh.)

Am gonna meet up with the Crescentians later for Aidah's birthday... I'm sick. I'm tired. I'm just so jaded I wanna go home and hide under my blanket.

But I can't.

Coz it's Aidah's birthday and I love Aidah.

Hmm...

Yesterday night I noticed something that Epain's noticed for weeks.

Whenever he sends me home, we'll sit at the porch to talk first, then go home.

Along came this malaysian bike, he'll send off his gurlfriend. Then he'll wait there looking up to the sky.

A few minutes later, on level 8, a gurl at the end window would be waving furiously and blow him a flying kiss. He'll wave back and grin like a fool. He'll ride out of the carpark and she'll still stand there to watch him leave.

It's a simple gesture of love but it brought tears to my eyes. I mean, it's so bloody sweet la! Apparently, Epain says that everytime this fella sends his gurl home, he'll wait until she reaches her room and wait for her wave, and then he'll ride off. It's funny coz I never noticed it, but he's always seen them doing this whenever he sends me home! When I saw it, it's so so sweet... I cannot tahan man... I myself was grinning like a fool with tears in my eyes.

I'm just so blessed to be in the same boat as that couple; i.e. to be in lurve =)

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I just realized that someone I loathe has the exact same shoes that I wanted to buy a few months back. Thank god I didn't buy that shoe! I settled for something more unique and nice coz I figured that other model is gonna be common, that all the gurls in SG would buy it coz it's so blatantly pretty. And I was right *smug smile* I guess someone like her would buy a shoe coz well, she's the typical gurl in Singapore. Not a unique one; like moi =)