It's gonna be another busy weekend.

Tonight - office party at MoS
Tomorrow - Zouk Very Brit event
Sunday - Raggae Night

How am I suppsoed to party so much when I am bankrupt? Beats me. Shall try to win bets again!! Hahaha.

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Shidah, Yan & Aidah : Blah blah blah Abudabi.
Rahmah : Hey isn't that like a rice brand or something?
Shidah, Yan & Aidah : Noooooo! That's ADABI!!!
Shidah : *starts singing the ADABI song*

Goodness. I'm so dumb sometimes. Hahaha

This is what I emailed Adrian :

-----Original Message-----
From: Love Loss Luxie [mailto:luxxxylisbon@hotmail.com]
Sent: Thursday, June 29, 2006 11:48 AM
To: xxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: pls pls plsssssssssssssss

adrian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can i have invites to zouk on sat coz u KNOW im just dying to be there despite the fact that i fell down in front of velvet last friday and have an orcheh as huge as an orange on my left knee!! and also made a huge fool outta myself in front of everyone. hmmm.....

i'll prove it to ya when i see ya too just in case u r mad at me i couldnt go to your show last saturday (coz the leg was hurting!!). hahahaha

thanks adriannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

ya know i luvluvluv ya *winks*

PS : i didnt forget about our deal. hehehehehe

His reply :

From: "[POPTART]" xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
To: "'Love Loss Luxie'"
Subject: RE: pls pls plsssssssssssssss
Date: Thu, 29 Jun 2006 14:14:41 +0800


Hi dearie,

You'll find me at a booth of the Zouk entrance on Saturday night from 9-10pm. That's where you'll be able to collect your passes. Please please come by 10pm to get the passes ok? And bring yer ID too to avoid problems at the door.

I have a feeling sat night's gonna be a riot outside zouk...I give you my number in case I'm like lost in a sea of popsluts. Hahaha. If only i have a shop then everyone just come and pick up their passes! xxxxxxxx.

Let's RRRIIIOOOOOOOOOTTTTTT!

Adrian

PS. Take care of yer leg! It's an important part of the body! And I won't forget too ;)


SEE.

He gave me his number!! Like, wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mind you, he is a DJ whom practically every gay/lesbian has a crush on (if they frequent POPTART that is) and I've never went out with him. Only see him once a month during POPTART gigs, chat on MSN on a daily basis and of course, the regular hugs when we bump into each other at clubs. So it's like, I feel so honoured he's finally decided to give me his number laa! I'm as good as a stranger to him man!

*beams*

Okay anybody wanna go to Zouk on saturday? Message me coz you know my number ;)

They are having the Very Brit event so like I can get quite a few passes so like don't be shy, tell me how many you need and I'll try to help you aight?

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (A tribute to the lovely Adrian Wee. His surname is a sign of my happiness. Muacks!)

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Oooooo yesterday was a damn tiring day man.

Went shopping with the mother in the day.
Got myself a pair of Mambo berms.
2 skimpy tops my mom was glaring at from MNG (coz it's really hot and cute okay??)
A pair of shades from Topshop (Mom bought this for moi~ grins)
And I'm like bankrupt coz everything was so friggin costly. Spent like, $180 in 2 hours?

Haiya... rahmah rahmah rahmah. Gotta stop shopping just because everyone else is and it's on 30% sale coz it is still costly!!

But I love my berms la. I haven't worn berms since I was 15 so now that I'm 21, I'm getting in touch with my 'rugged' side I guess. And no Yan, I don't wanna be like Avril Lavigne. Hahaha. I just want that 'relek' look, wear berms and singlets and chill ya know? So sick of the miniskirts, tight jeans and 3/4 pants... berms are cool. To the clubs, to work, to chillout, to anywhere! =) I love it la.

And I love my huge shades from Topshop =) Thanks Mom!! $40 okay she buy for me!! Just so that i won't steal it *guilty laugh* hehehe...

And my tops are cool. One doesn't need to have a bra on and the other is a tube. What's new, I'm fond of such things. You should know by now. Haha.

Went home to spend time with the family for a while then Aza fetched me from home. You were 15 minutes late dude! You are always late!!! tsk tsk tsk... nevermind. Then we went back to his place to get the alcohol and stuff which wasn't even consumed eventually anyways. Waste time only... Then we fetched Sat and Yan. Poor Aza, taxi driver right? Hehe.

Met the gang at Changi Airport to send Surya off to Dubai. She's gonna be an Emirates stewardess =) *beams* Surya's so so pretty and nice, I couldn't take my eyes off her! And Rudi's so handsome and funny... they are the perfect match la.
Aidah cried like there's no tomorrow.
Rashid appeared out of nowhere.
Rudi was like a lost lonesome boy when Surya entered the gates.
Andrew, Aza, Sat came forward to hug Rudi and he cried.
Me, Yan and Shidah came forward to hug Aidah.
It was a very very sad and dramamtic night la...

But after that was fun. hahaha. Went to Starbucks T2 to hang out with Yan, Aidah, Shidah and P-I-M-P Andrew coz the rest of the boys were with Rashid (Rashid's Aidah's ex by the way so that explains why they cannot be within a 10m radius of each other!) at BK T1.

After that we gurls happily sat in Andrew's huge Toyota Camry while the boys took Aza's car and we met up at Al-azhar... had supper and got home at nearly 5am. Thanks Aza for sending me home time and again =) Hahaha.

Shidah made us thank Andrew the driver all the way by yelling THANK YOU UNCLE like as if we were primary school kids greeting a teacher. Hahaha. That was dang hilarious laa!! Shidah is like the funniest and cutest thing ever I tell you guys!!

In the car on the ECP, the song So Into You by Tamia came on. I was sitting in the car with my lovely friends and 1 apek boy who'll be my schoolmate in 4 months time. We were all humming along to the chorus softly and staring out of the windows and suddenly my heart's filled with love and happiness for them. These people with me in the car, especially the ones sitting next to me (you know who you are okay!). I'm happy at the mo and somehow all the fucked up times don't matter at all. For once nothing's on my mind but pure happiness and love.

It's funny how I felt that way with my friends around and not with the boyfriend...

# posted by KittenishKitsch @ 3:14 PM

Just got back from lunch at Pastamania and I'm so full I can puke. Thanks for lunch Habbibbibibibibibibbi!

Wahahahaha

Anyways gosh I'm just so happy for my friends la =)

Haven't had the time to congratulate Aidah, here goes..........

CONGRATULATIONS AIDAH AND BOY!! AND YOU GUYS OWE ME BIG TIME!!!!

hahahahaha.

I should take away the latter part, shouldn't I? Oh well.

Gringringrin.

Rahmah's very very happy and proud of you guys the way a mother is when her kids learn how to walk (??????). Ok there's no relevance there but what the heck. You guys catch my drift, I'm sure.

And I miss the other gurls. Kinda disappointed we are not meeting up anymore with Az, Mel, Wan and Nona. We all have such busy schedules so I understand it's hard to meet like all of us. I also understand Wan's in a tough position trying to organise this and her hp bill's prolly gonna hit sky high this month coz she's msging all of us alot. Wahahahaha. I'm sorry babe!! I'll compensate and treat you to a round of drinks, yes? Hehe kiddingggggg!! Kk I'll buy you a non-alcoholic drink k! Sayang sayang sayang... kekekeke....

Nona, you don't look bad laa. You look very arty farty fashionista type with that fringe! Hehehe so be happy with it before you start to grow it and then look like 70% of the female Malay population all over again! (Meaning like me and everyone else la, gurls with fringes parted to the side 'glamarously'. Lagi tepi lagi bagos, betok tak?? hahaha).

Azmia's back from Australia and I can't wait to see her =)

Esther's back from London too and I can't wait to see her =)

Kavita's back from France and I can't wait to see her =)

I'm supposed to meet up with Teresa, Mingxiu, Ayu, Sheha, and others whom I promised but can't remember. GOD my memory sucks! I need a PDA *grins* Okok weak excuse to get a PDA handheld but still. I need one. Cooler than carrying around an organizer right?? I mean, who writes things down these days anyways? Everyone's typing or pressing some buttons instead!

Stayed up to watch soccer. Dammit la Italy you disappoint me!!! Hahaha. Last minute goal, what is this?? It's against Australia for God's sakes, not like Brazil!! Okok for someone who knows nuts about soccer (i.e me) I'd better shut up before some soccer buffs kick my ass. Hehehe.

Slept at 6 am and my eyes can barely open at work. As always. The 8-minute-nap-in-the-office-toilet habit was on repetitive mode today. About 5 times today to be exact. Wahahahaha.



Met up with Boy in town. Walked around everywhere to search for Aidah's niece's colouring book. hahaha. Aidah joined us afterwards and we settled on a Barbie colouring book. So cute laaa!! I also want!! Ok anyways, they watched a movie (like, as always!) and I was wandering around town alone.

Why?

Because the boyfriend is inefficient as always. Eventually took a cab down to Esplanade and read Kerrang for a good 2 hours all by myself... sad right? I wanted to share the joyful experience of sitting there watching the skyline with a loved one but in the end I shared it with 10 other necking couples (d.i.s.g.u.s.t.i.n.g!!!).

When he came he vehemently insisted that it wasn't his fault that I didn't give the exact timing to meet. Like, what's so hard about understanding the sentence 'Come to town now'?? Grrrr.... so we headed to Spize for dinner and then met up with Aidah and Boy at Lau Pa Sat. Watched soccer and I was practically asleep man. Hahaha. We betted like $40 on Ecuador and we lost it =( Suckass!!!!!

So eyah been getting home at like 6 in the morning so much and I'm just exhausted la...

Nites!





Pic1 : bye bye Surya =( You will be missed! (Don't get tersanggkut with some arab dogol okay!)
Pic2 : Me and Aidah on the super comfy fluffy white bed! Best!!!!!!
Pic3 : OOOOOOO looky looky at the gorgeous view at night from our room on the 51st floor!
Pic4 : Dawn's view is even better =) Pretty pretty sight aye?



Pic5 : Cool effect right????? wah....
Pic6 : Okay the actual pic looking not very cool.
Pic7 : All of us looking pretty and handsome.
Bottom row (L-R) : Dunno who, dunno who, Rudy, Suya!!, Aidah, Me.
2nd Row (L-R) : Azza, Dunno who, Sat, Shida.
Pic8 : All of us looking like retards. hahaha.

Was wearing the new GUESS top I bought few weeks back and the fucken thing is so bloody itchy and hot!!! Can't stand it man!! But I love the off-shoulderness of it all la... and the extra long sleeves too =) Heeeeeeee

Met up with Hab earlier in the day for yummy Yoshinoya and a walk around Bugis.
Then met up with Aidah and headed to Kampong Glam Cafe to meet like 20 people who are somehow related to Suya for her going-away gathering. Haha.
Then we headed to Westin which they overnighted at (refer to above pictures).
Then Ipin and I caught Scary Movie 4 which was okay but not worth the money coz it was only 83minutes long.
Met up with Yan and Martin for supper/breakfast at Mac.

It was a hectic saturday that was filled with my tantrums and bleeding feet. Urgh. When I'm PMS-ing, I am the bitchiest lil ass you can get man, really really really.

Martin fetched me from work and we headed to Zouk. Had 4 beers in Zouk with him while waiting for everyone else to arrive and eventually met up with Yan and Ipin at Zion. Boy and Aidah buay-ed us, as expected. Grrrr... and I was kinda tipsy after the Barons at Zion so while walking towards Zouk/Velvet, I fell down. Yes I fell down in front of everyone who was queueing up and the bouncers and the valet and everyone. Fuck lar I could feel my face burning!! Hahaha. Yan quickly scooted off to Phuture after helping me and I just walked straight into Velvet side trying to stiffle my giggles. Man that was da bomb to like maximum embarrassment I tell ya!!

Now I've got a HUGE orcheh the size of an orange on my left knee. Sigh.... I'm such a klutz I tell you!

After that we went to the NUS cheese prata shop for late supper as always. The soccer channel was bad coz the reception was awful, straiend our eyes and all... not that me and Yan were interested in the soccer la. Haha. Got home at like 6am and off to bed and slept like a baby. Heeeeeeeeeee

Happy me after a good dosage of house =)

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I'M GOING TO ZOUK TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TOMORROW ELECTRO/HOUSE PARTY AT HOME AND GUEST LIST AGAIN!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Am so stressed out with work lately that I've grown a huge pimple on my nose and cheek. Sigh... what bad timing. Zouk and HOME and 2 HUGE pimples. Gross. Bad combination!

I'm not happy with many people la basically. I've got tonnes of issues but honestly I think I'm a pretty nice person, so obviously I'm not the confrontational sort. Hell, I don't even like ever say mean or hurtful things to anyone (except for the boyfriend and ex-gf la). I don't wanna fight either so I just keep quiet and when I really can't take it, I'll rattle off to the boyfriend. Then he'll tell me not to care so much. &@%&@*^#%!!!!! I can't help it if I feel a certain way towards certain people/issues okay?? It pisses the crap out of me!! But when I meet the person, I'll be all smiles and nice. I'm not a hypocrite la. I'm just not bitchy and mean, that's all. Besides, I don't have the heart to tell a loved one off... so yeah. that's that.

Anyhoos, I'm just tired lar. Very very tired of everything and everyone. I just wanna go party, get high and dance. Don't wanna bother about keeping up with pretenses or pleasing the boyfriend, friends, ex-gf, bosses, colleagues, parents, etc etc etc...

Am depressed and exhausted.
Am growing fat and fugly.
Am becoming slower and stupider.
Am becoming boring and no-lifer-material.
Am becoming a loser.

Please don't leave me.

Pic1 : My hp bill. Nearly 200buckeroos!!! YIKES!!!! I'm so dead. so so dead. see la Martin Boy Aidah Yan! 80% of all my calls and sms-es are to you guys sia! Hahahahahaha. Alalala dont be mad just kidding around =) But I don't know how the hell I'm gonna pay up man... sigh.
Pic2 : Aww Hab did for me. So sweet laa! Toasted bread and salmon spread =) I loooove salmon. And the spread from IKEA was just soooo good laa! Somemore she cut it into tiny lil hearts =) So adorable right???

Coz like we were eating at IKEA again yesterday (I just had that super craving for broccolli and salmon!!) and I was like so miffed that we couldn't eat the meatballs coz it contains pork. The sauce looked so yummy and all and I can't eat it. I get really annoyed when I can't eat what I want ya know? So she decided to buy the sauce for me and instead of meatballs, she put it with bread. Innovative aye? Hehehe.

Thank you Hab!!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeee says:
do you have any tattoos?

luxie says:
no! tho i wish i can! aiya its the muslim-perm-scar mindset la...piercings are fine coz they r removable but tattoos cannot...too bad la. ive been dying to have one since i discovred the word tattoo.

weeeeeeeeeee says:
oh yeah

weeeeeeeeeee says:
is it like against the religion?

luxie says:
yea it is! so is piercing any body part but the ears, so is plucking ur eyebrows, so is dyeing your hair, so is drinking n smoking. hahaha. but thats what we all still do...we r so so so gonna go to hell man...

weeeeeeeeeee says:
don't worry, we can all meet there and have poptart for eternity

weeeeeeeeeee says:
scary though

weeeeeeeeeee says:
hahaha

luxie says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHA

luxie says:
u r so hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!

That's my cacat Adrian for you *curtsies*

Lunch at Spageddies on Saturday =) My favourite creamy chicken with linguini please! And Hab had this luscious crayfish thingy and our favourite HUGE chicken and pasta salad and of course, the all-time favourite dessert of the century, Italian cake and vanilla ice-cream. I know it looks so plain and humble but you guys gotta try it!! The cake is warm and very very very nice, not the overwhelmingly chocalatey sort. And the vanilla ice-cream tastes full. Ya know not the flat taste you get buying from supermarkets? The rich and creamy sort of vanilla with a nice smell and all. Anyways Hamdan gave us 15% off the bill (wah promoted to manager laa!!) but the bill was still pretty hefty. From this photo you'll think that the food portion is small but trust me, it's huge man. It's such a huge portion that the both of us couldn't finish up lots of it! Thanks Hab for the treat =)

Walked around town til my feet hurts. Got myself a $90 wedge shoe from Zara. I don't know if I should regret or not. But I really really really don't want to settle for something from Charles & Keith or Metro, ya know? I cannot stand it if I'm wearing something the majority has, even though it's so so pretty. The sheos at C&K were so pretty and affordable, I was tempted to buy like 2 pairs. But cannot la. My heart is with the Zara shoe. Been eyeing it for ages! So now it's MINE! =) Oh, I'm a size 3. Can you believe that???? Hahaha. The shoes must've been cut small...

Headed to HOME for POPTART at night with Ipin, Tara and Angel. Angel's so pretty tara!!! Aiyoh!! Then we left to buy ciggs and run some errands... met Tara again around 1am and she was with Anna and another unnamed friend. POPTART wasn't really good this time. The crowd was lazy, the music wasn't very nice and we weren't anywhere near drunk. So that explains why we were miserable. haha. Maybe it's because I've been going for like 10 POPTART shows by now, maybe I'm just getting bored, maybe I'm just tired, maybe I wasn't high enough, maybe I was moody. I don't know. But I wish I enjoyed the party more... But nevermind. No loss since I was on the guest list anyways *sniggers*

Met up with Martin and Yan after the party. Yes Yan we were stalking you. Even before your show ended we were already waiting for you and calling you non stop at Cine. Wahaahahaha. So went to Hakim to get supper and it's so cool to sit with them la... this Liyana Banana has a lot of things to say. Funny things. And Mr Martin has alot of things to say too. Nasty things. So they were like squabbling kids. Him telling her to shut up. She giving him the evil eye. Ipin happily smiling at everyone. Me so amused and having the regular giggling fits. Got home at 6am yet I wasn't tired. Weird.

Aidah and Boy went on their gazillionth date *everyone say awwwwwww* and we heard some people were holding hands infront of friends aye! Tee hee hee hee.... congratulations lar =) Am happy that the both of you are so happy. The same cannot be said for Yan and Beng though. Hahaha.

Sunday was spent cleaning up the house and watching MTV all day long. Went for dinner at the kopitiam and watched soccer with B at night. Quite fun la actually even though I know nuts about the game. I'm not interested in the men either coz even though they are cute, I'm not the sort of gurl to worship stars/singers/boyband members/footballers/etc. So just sat there with my slice fish soup and tried to understand the game and why Italy is so stupid to not win the game. Hmmm.

Yan, I know you are hurting and I am sorry. Break ups are never easy and different people deal with it differently. Just to let you know I'm always here to lend you a shoulder to cry on okay =) (Just don't soak me with your tears if we're out la... not very glam to walk around in wet clothes ya know?) Anytime you need someone to go out with, I'm always around (except for the times when I'm bankrupt. hahaha). Stay cool (and funky. No no kidding. Lame!) and don't let things get to your head. Some people are not worthy of your wrath!

It's been a wonderful makan week with hab =) Thanks so much dearie!!

Tuesday - Mutton briyani yummmmm at hakim.
Wednesday - Chicken Briyani at Hakim yummylicious!
Thursday - Coffee Club lunch and Giraffe dinner
Friday - Ikea's swedish restaurant lunch



Went to Giraffe with Hab on Thursday night. It was such a super cool place man, like the ambience was wonderful la! But the food sucks. Considering the price, I was expecting something much better! And oh, the wait staff were eye candy too. Hehehe

Pic1 : Me and my dessert. Frozen berries and yoghurt. It was so bloody frozen and sour that i couldn't swallow any more than 6 berries. A $15 dessert went down the drain just like that. Tsk tsk tsk.
Pic2 : Our main dishes. She had some fish thingy with cream sauce and mine was some chicken thingy with mushrooms and potatoes. Disgusting.
Pic3 : Our starters, potato wedges and mascarpone. I'd say this is the best tasting dish and funniest part is that it's the cheapest.
Pic4 : Her dessert which looks so so pretty! Tasted alright too =)




The boys at Pasir Gudang last weekend for the Vespa race. Sigh... boys will be boys. I just don't get as to why they'd wanna race with a Vespa. A vespa's meant to look pretty not to be raced!

Had a huge tiff with the boyfriend over the phone yesterday coz once again, I got home at 10.30pm. Felt like such a loser; everyday going home before 11pm! I'm so bored stiff everyday and the loneliness is so unbearable that I keep smoking to keep my mind off things... til like I can really feel like a hole in my left chest... like when I breathe, it hurts? Yea! It's pointless to cry coz not that he knows, not that anyone cares anyways. So everyday I can't sleep, I think and think and think til I get tired and then I'll down the pretty blue sleeping pills and now I'm out of them =( How the hell am I gonna sleep tonight...

I told him we have communication and expressing-our-thoughts issues. And he kept quiet all the way. SEE??? That's what I'm talking about! I can't be doing all the talking all the time and you just keep quiet! I know you're not stupid and I know you have alot to say as well, so why not say it?? Quit saying ya la ya la it's my fault la... saying that doesn't resolve anything, can't you see?? I'm not picking a fight with you, I'm trying to make the relationship work! And if you always end up being so resigned and don't bother to work on it then how are we gonna be happy??

I know that the both of us are physically there everyday but our minds are far, far away. Man, you even admitted that your mind's always not with me when we are together! So? Work on it! Work on us! Work on this fucking relationship and prove to the world that we will conquer all obstacles and make it someday goddammit!

Was talking to Nona just now. She's so hilarious laa! But I feel so bad about her situation at home... wish we can help her out. And as for her bro? She said bangla sapu jalan pun lagi mulia. Hahahahahahahahahaa

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Crazy weekend. The boyfriend wasn't around most of the time...

Friday he sent me home at 11pm coz he wanted to watch soccer with his friends.

Saturday he sent me home at 11pm again coz he was going to JB for the Vespa race.

Sunday he sent me home at 11pm coz he was too tired from Fri and Sat.

Each day I spend 1 hour with him yet I spent 3 hours waiting for him to meet me. Still I love him so much. So tell me. Am I just stupid or a fool in love?

Nevermind.

Saturday met Colin and then spent time reading Kerrang at Esplanade and dinner at Spize.

Met up with Chalk, Teresa and Netty yesterday =)

Was good seeing Teresa after like, 4 years?!??! We've truly blossomed as compared to when we were 16, haven't we? Hehehe...

Well I gotta go... got lotsa work to finish up. Cheerios~

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The gurls will be back today. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I hope I have presents. hehehee......

I miss them so much =(

I fell down again. Argh. It hurts alot. I think that stairacse is cursed, serious.

So anyways the gurls are in BKK and they called me to ask what the boys would like. So sweet right? I asked for a bikini but they said the underwear is very high =( That's sad. Oh well nevermind any miniskirt would do. hahaha.

Anyhoos, had a huge tiff with him twice this week. Sigh... things are getting harder. Why am I even clinging onto this? Beats me...

It's a saturday, I've got a twice-sprained left ankle and I'm at work waiting for blardy Colin. Sigh...

My boyfriend's asleep and the kerrangs at Esplanade library are waiting for me. So little time, so much to do and accomplish. I'm tired, i'm bankrupt. I'm distressed and you don't even care.

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So sad that the gurls aren't here. And neither is the boyfriend. i feel so lonely!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sure the weekend's gonna suck since they aren't here to be with me =(

Aidah Yan faster come back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I actualy cried when they left, ya know that? Coz I can't imagine to go thru the weekend without them!!!!!!!!!! No fellow gossip mongers asking me for stories... nobody to share my heartaches with... nobody to tease about Boy and Beng... heheh... thank god Suya's around =) hehehe.

Mari sini suya!

Us hanging out at Newton after watching Benchwarmers. Aren't we couples so cute??? Gringringrin. Wa wa wa manja Aidah! Kekekekeke.... I'm just teasing Aidah! Luv you k!!



Pic1 : Yes Yan loves her keropok very mucho gracho. Us camwhoring while the boys were at the bike shop.
Pic2 : Our favourite drinks!! Ice lemon tea!
Pic3 : Hahaha. Don't we look like Afghanistan refugees? Yes? No? Nevermind.
Pic4 : Awww nice gurlies =)
Pic5 : Hahaha. Yan loves the helmet so much she's pretending to be a biker. Like whatever Yan!!!!
Pic6 : Now Aidah loves the helmet and pretending to be strong! (???) Hahaha. So cute!



Pic7 : Yummy cake! Thanks gurls for getting it for me =)
Pic8 : Happy 25th Birthday Darling. I love you !!!
Pic9 : Yan why do you always look so fierce??? Hahaha.
Pic10 : Boy and Ipin. Besties!
Pic11 : Say cheese!!!!!!!!
Pic12 : Look la at how he cuts the cake. This is a CAKE B! Not bread! You cut triangular pieces, not square pieces!! Hahaahaha

So basically we spent the entire night playing cards and watching VCDs non-stop. Thanks for the VCDs Yan.
Thanks for the cake Aidah.
Thanks for the beer Boy.
Thanks for the cards Yan.
Thanks for hiding Ipin, Boy.
Thanks to everyone for turning up =)
Unfortunately Martin couldn't be there coz his dad was undergoing surgery so it was kinda empty without him... next time you gotta be there k?? We all missed you!

The ironic part was that B fell asleep first even though he was the last to reach. Plus, it was his party!! hahaha. And the boys were just soooo slow at playing the bodoh game la! Why are you boys so scared to touch our hands?? We gurls don't have diseases you know!! Boy and Aidah got it on (no no not sex la, just easy peasy mild affections!) which was very very sweet. yan was sleeping with her hoodie; facing the wall coz she knew that we were trying to take photos of her. B just totally knocked out by 5am and I ended up finishing 1.5 bottles of Barons coz nobody else drank. Boy, don't action la okaaaay! And B fell asleep so yea. Poor me clogged up the sink with my puke. Hahaha.

Actually the funnest part was with the gurls la. Watching Superstar (GAWD SHE WAS FRENCHING A TREE!??!?!) and laughing at White Chicks and just cuddling in bed with our keropoks and ice lemon teas. Yeap.

We should do this with the rest of the gurls again someday =)

Hab just reminded me of the fat crazy fella who used to stalk me at Paragon - when he sees me at my counter doing work, he'll come running and yelling 'Jamboooo!!! Jambooooo!!!' CHRIST MAN SCARED THE FRIGGIN' SHITE OUT OF ME ALL THE TIME!!! And he'll stand at the counter and insist that the fella on our $2 note (Yusof Ishak right?) is my Dad. Yes, he insisted that Yusof Ishak is my Dad coz he thinks I'm pretty like Yusof Ishak (????). He'll stand at the corner of my counter and stare at me lovingly and write me love notes and when he gave it to me, it said things like 15626494 siti rumah okay computer and all sorts fo randowm words but written nicely in a word pyramid. I was often amused and since I have the patience of a Priest (well I don't know what else is so very patient, so priest be it then), I never yelled at him or treated him bad. Unlike everyone else who treated him like a pest/retard/madman, I've never been anything short of nice and polite to him. When he came by, even though I was freaked to death, I'll always smile and talk to him like he's just another one of us normal people, even though he clearly isn't. But people like these are unpredictable. One minute he's outside Paragon yelling at my customers, next he's in front of me smiling and offering me orange juice from Starbucks. Thing is, he's never been bad or rude to me. But when it's 10pm and nobody's around, I used to be so damn scared that he'll body-slam me or something that Hab had to station herself at my counter so that I could pretend to be busy talking to Hab. So abd right? But cannot be helped la...

Okay anyhoos enough of crazy-people talking

The weekend was okay I guess...

Sunday met up with the luv, Yan, Aidah, Boy and Beng to watch The Benchwarmers. It was fun la!!!! Then hung out at Newton... alalala Yan takmo merajuk we left you alone... it's for the best k? Wahahahaha! Kidding!! So yea the boys were so bitchy calling gurls names like Babylon5, Sumpit, Pisang and stuff... tsk tsk tsk. B, your mouth quite bad huh!! Diam diam lepu! Hahaha. Funny la hanging out with them... us 6 reunited after Aidah's absence. Hehehe.... Sat outside Forum drinking Bourbon Coke and saw many many friends I've made since being part of Ipin's life. I'm thankful for that sometimes coz some of these gurls are real gems la...

Sunday had breakfast with the family then went back to sleep. Woke up late, went to Sentosa with the luv in the late afternoon and the sun disappeared after we lay down there for 10minutes. Every Sentosa trip is a bloody wasted trip!! Grrr.... left the place within an hour and took a bus home with Baby coz he left his bike at my place. The bus ride was fun. It was a cool Sunday evening, around 6 plus. The bus was empty and we laughed and reminisced about the school days when we kids love making out on the double decker bus at the back. Back then we were halfway thru being decent and naughty and that was the only place to make out at coz the movies cost too much. hehehe... Now we are just plain naughty. Wahahaha

At night went to Shunfu to watch the boys play takraw. Hani, Suzi and Belle was there and I was stuck with them. Something bad happened that I burst into tears in front of 15 sweaty boys and 3 bitchy gurls la... I don't have the time to elaborate now so I shall do it another time. Gurls... tsk. I shall post up their pics and show you guys what ugly gurls are capable off. To top it off, they are stupid. Ugly, stupid, bitchy and silly. What a great combo. tsk. I pray for all of you to never encounter these gurls ever in your lives man. All I want is to be nice and accepted but some people just refuse to give me a chance simply because they've got no backbones and no brains to think for themselves. To me it's like, if you have never offended me, then I won't be mean to you. Even if you offend someone I love, I'll still be polite to you but never mean. Coz it's just stupid, isn't it? But nooooo, gurls always have to action hero and show what they are made of. Which is tonnes of bitchy glee and nasty tongues.

Peace out.

I'm heading to the Doc's coz of the stupid left leg being swollen and all. Sigh...

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

*cheeky giggle*

I think that's quite true, don't you? Well Hab and Ipin sure can vouch for this! Hehehe...

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BAYBEATS THIS YEAR IS HOT HOT HOT!!

Check out the full schedule you fuckin' poseur scenesters!!!!!!!!!!!

Click here coz I say so fools!!!!!!.

CONCAVE SCREAM!
FURNITURE!
POPTART!
LEAVEN TRAIT!
LOVE ME BUTCH!
PLAIN SUNSET!
THE JEALOUS SOUND!
ONE BUCK SHORT!
LUNARIN!
ASTREAL!

GAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll prolly take leave from work. Hahaha.

But I don't know what's Electrico and West Grand Boulevard doing there though. They suckass! Especially WGB! They kicked out Brian (Kejin's bf) only to replace him with Daphne Khoo. I mean like, wtf?!?!? Brian was a good showman! Daphne's just some Minnie Mouse poser biatch!! Grrrr.... sooooo not my fave people!!

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I've been thinking alot about what would happen to me should Ipin die. And it sure doesn't help when someone we know just passed away coz of a bike accident... Well I don't know him personally and I cannot care less about the people he's associated with, but I sure know who he is. And it's pretty saddening to know that so many youth's lives are taken on the roads of SG coz of all these bike accidents. And 80% of the time, they crash into cabs.

I honestly hate the way cabbies drive la. Their reckless driving doesn't justify their need to earn more money man!! They want to get to a destination fast and they are so damn impatient, it's annoying and dangerous! They don't bother to signal, they cut lanes like their bapakis the President, they will throw you nasty looks even when they are in the wrong and they'll stop all of a sudden just to pick someone up or let them alight! It's fucking dangerous for other pedestrians, motorists and motorcyclists laa! Grrrr...

I stayed up thinking til like 6.30 in the morning... thank you so much Yan for layaning my gila at 4 in the morning. hehehe... she was a kind soul to reply my msgs. She was also up all night, but for a different reason. Wahahahaha.

Death is such a sensitive issue. You always can't help but to think what if this what if that... what if it happened to me? Sigh... I wanna say so much more but Pauline's keeping an eye on me later peeps =)

Dammit I hate the way you're making me feel right now.

Each day I look forward to receiving your mails and when I read them, I've got a silly grin plastered on my face... my heart flutters when I see your name in my mailbox and each anticipation grows by the day. Why am I feeling this way??

Our mails are so chaste and ordinary yet they mean so much to me and I look forward to them everyday. We talk about our respective lovers, bitch about old friends and muse about the future. I love it when you call me luv or darl or sweets or sugar coz I know you don't mean it. Coz I know the person you really love is Mel. Coz I know you are such a good friend I've rediscovered after all these years. Coz I know that we can flirt all we want and you still won't ever want to get into my panties simply because you are a gentleman who respects me. God bless the souls of the Friendster founders!

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The bosses just spoke to me about work and I'm pretty happy with what I heard =) Well they think I'm very very nice and sweet with customers even though I'm treated like crap most of the time and I'm easy to get along with and I learn fast. If there's a best newcomer award, they said they'll give it to me! So yay! Hehehe... but then again Meldric and Pauline are pretty nice and mild people so yea. But they did threaten me about my attendance though. Aiya it's my fault la, no doubt about that. So I just apologised profusely and grin it off. Hehe.

Met up with Yan, Beng and B at Spize yesterday night and Beng drove Yan home. Awww! Okay la actually he should coz afterall Yan was alone and it was like 1am. So it's the right thing to do for a man, yes? So cute la hanging out with them. They are funny, fun and laidback. No tensions! And I still owe Yan $3. Hahaha.

Went shopping with Mom yesterday. Got myself a MAC 2-way cake, MAC lipstick, Topshop undies (which were of the wrong size. dang!), a bra from PC, an off-shoulder top from GUESS and work pants from Pepperplus. Best part is? My mom paid for everything. Hahaha. Considering the fact that the top and pants cost $70 each, the MAC stuff costs $72 in total, the undies n bra cost $40 in total, thats a cool $250 to bust up in 3hrs of shopping! And that's not even inclusive of all the Auntie Anne pretzels we ate, the Starbucks Coffee we drank and the Coffee Club lunch we had and the Straits Kitchen dinner we had with Dad. Wah my parents sure are nice to me for once man... hehehe. I'm happy but I feel so guilty for wasting so much of their money like this. Being so extravagant now coz payday was a few days ago will only result in bankrupt days towards the end of the month, right? But it's nice being with the parents...

Dad said something. He said 'Insyaallah when Siti gets married, we'll have enough for her wedding to make it a good one'. I almost burst into tears in front of my hainanese chicken rice. That's so sweet!! Coz they were discussing Mom's good friend's son's wedding at Tepak Sirih and it costs a friggin' $35/head, which amounts to $40K in total just for the food alone. Usual Malay weddings costs like $8-$10/head so you'll spend an average of $10K on your wedding's food.

All this marriage talk makes me queasy. I don't mind getting married soon coz I love Ipin. On the other hand, I want my freedom and to enjoy my hard earned money after graduating instead of paying for house loans and car loans. Besides, money talks right? So if no money then no need to even think about marriage. haha. But my parents and Ipin think otherwise la... I know why the parents want me married asap. So that I'll be ipin's responsibility, and not theirs anymore. And I know why Ipin wants to get married fast. Coz age is catching up with him, he loves me and wants to hold me down. (He's 25 by the way and I'm only 21. ARGH!)

But I don't want to get married anytime before 27! I want to travel 1st, make my own money and live lavishly, repay back my parent's kindness and support them for a few years or so (coz after marriage I'll need to think of my own family and I won't be able to give them so much anymore), flaunt the body while it's still in good shape (after marriage please la. The husband's gonna want some kids and then you'll see me looking like a papaya.), meet many many people and do many many stupid things, party my ass off anywhere I want, etc etc etc...

After marriage you can't do all these what. You've got to think of paying the wedding loans, the house loans, the car loans, gotta save for the kids, gotta think of the husband and cook for him (YUCKS!!), gotta stop the partying, drinking, smoking coz afterall I have to be a responsible adult coz I'm someone's wife (eew someone's wife makes me cringe!!), gotta dress up properly and not any-o-how go out with people coz I must listen to my husband *faints* and last but not least, I gotta listen to the mother-in-law too. Life is endless torture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But the biggest issue now is whether he's willing to wait for me for the next 6 years or not. By then he'll be 31 and I'm 27. To me it's the perfect age. To him my biological clock is nearly extinct. Wah lao! I've got colleagues trying to escape marriage coz their gfs keep bugging them. For me it's vice versa. Strange strange people we all are, innit?